So I love this job but I don't how I'm gonna be able to hang with it. Bob's expecting me to know everything in just a few days and flipping the fuck out on me when I don't. I dunno, this is my favorite job ever I just wish he'd cut me some damn fucking slack. I'm only human. But oh well, I'll get used to it.

Ugh. I have such a crappy headache. It'll feel like it's going away and then BAM it's back. I don't know why those vicodin had a reverse effect on me, it never has before. Maybe just cause I took so many. I wish my dang headache would go away!!

I hope I get this job down and impress Bob. He's hard to read. I can't tell if he's happy with the job I'm doing or if he's mad. I hope he's happy, I'm trying my hardest.

I don't know why Craig keeps flipping out on me. This morning, yet again, he got mad about me doing my hair and makeup. He's so jealous. I mean, I'm glad he loves me that much but still, he's just starting fights between us for no reason.

So today's going okay. It's not as bad as I thought it was going to be.

Craig keeps talking to Matt and it's making me confused. Part of me wonders if I still have feelings at him and another part of me is like "no, I love Craig." I dunno, I don't think I could ever get back with him. Fuck that, I know I couldn't, I'm married, I don't believe in it. I think I just wonder about him cause I wonder if he has feelings for me, not cause I have feelings for him. I wish I could talk to Craig about this stuff and he'd understand but he doesn't. I doubt he ever will. He's too jealous. But it's okay, I understand.