So today's going okay. It's not as bad as I thought it was going to be.

Craig keeps talking to Matt and it's making me confused. Part of me wonders if I still have feelings at him and another part of me is like "no, I love Craig." I dunno, I don't think I could ever get back with him. Fuck that, I know I couldn't, I'm married, I don't believe in it. I think I just wonder about him cause I wonder if he has feelings for me, not cause I have feelings for him. I wish I could talk to Craig about this stuff and he'd understand but he doesn't. I doubt he ever will. He's too jealous. But it's okay, I understand.