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I'm confused. I can't decide if I still love Matt. I don't know. I'm so lost. I think about him all the freaking time but it's not even thinking about being with him, I just miss laughing and hanging out with him. I love my husband with all my heart but part of me is still...curious. I wonder how he thinks of me and he still cares about me. I think that's what gets me the most. I wonder what he feels and thinks when he sees me now. I wonder if he misses being with me, late night kicking back. I wonder if he misses his daughter...