heys, its been a good day. this mornin was the only problem. i woke up, as i do evry mornin, nd remembered that Dustin was gone. I talked to him today. i talk to him pretty much evry day now. its so awsum. he knows how i truely feel about him, even if he doesnt say he knows. i know he knows frum the way i talk towards him. i really miss him. i wunder wen nd if he comes back back for a visit. i really wanna c him agin.

zI havnt taled to him today. I miss Dustin a ton, he knows it. I am real happy I met him. there are some things I dont want him to know, but yet, I want him to know evrything. i wunder wat he thinks of me. I hope I get to talk to him soon.  its hard wakin up knowin he aint there. I worry about him all the time. He is the greatest persun i have ever met. he knows how to treat people. I talked to him tonite. I hope I talk to him agin tomorrow. the only resun I do good in scool is b/c I dont wanna disappoint him. if n/e thing were to happen to him, idk wat i wood do. he is my world.
 

Dustin has done and still does so much for me, he just doesnt noyice it. he is such a great guy. idk...wats rong with me? on the day that he comforted me i was crying. the next  day he told me "the next time you cry around me, I am gunna do something." I wunder wat he meant by that. I always think about him, its hard not to. I got to talk to Dustin today, he emailed me. it was great that I got to talk to him today, it mad me the happiest persun ever.

today was Dustin's b-day. I  coodnt email him. I felt so bad. he probably thinks i forgot him (I cood never forget him). I will email him tomorrow. there is so much I have to tell him. I hope he had a good b-day. sure, he coodnt b with family nd frinds, but I hope he made the best of it. it must be hard for him over there in Iraq. I hope he is ok. I really miss him. evrything is all so confusing. his picture is a constant reminder evry day to be all that I can nd give the world my best. its great that he made an influentia, impact on my life.

Dustin's b-day is tomorrow (7 september). i am gunna mail him. he is so awsum. it must suck for him to not be able to see his frinds and family on his b-day. I really miss him. its funny- I havnt been this happy in a wile. i wunder wat he does in iraq. I havnt talked to him in 3 days.

It's been a whole day, and I haven't talked to him. If you count today, it's been 2 days that I haven't talked to him. It bugs me. Idk if he is ok or not. It's funny, I act like his gf, if he had one. I wish I could be his gf, but lets not get into that. Idk when or if he gets to ever come back for a visit again this year. At least we still talk by email, sometimes. I just wish me and him could talk on the phone. I miss his graet voice. Other than looks, he's got the greatest personality in the world. He is the sweetest guy I have ever met. I kinda wish i were a better person. I have major attitude problems, but just the fact that I really like him, makes me wish I was as great as he is. It's pretty  great that he is serving our country, but I wish I could see him again. Dustin is one of the best people I have ever met. Idk what he thinks of me. Idk what to do, he is tghe closest thing to perfection. I just felt a connection that day when he held me and comforted me after me and my bf had the hugest fight ever. I wonder if he thinks of me when/while he is in Iraq- then again, he probably thinks about all his friends and family.  I cant wait to talk to him again. I have never felt closer to anyone else. He's like my best friend. His opinion matters most to me. What he thinks of me matters most to me. I have a picture of him on my phone. It's my wallpaper for my phone. The song"Stronger" by Kanye West is his ring tone for when he calls me. I look at his picture a lot, even at school. It keeps me motivated. I don't want to disappoint him.

I met Dustin 23 August, 2008. I was supposed to meet him yestaday- 3 September 2008- at church. But I didnt have a  ride. It was his last day here in SC, I really wanted to see him. Today was hard for me because I woke up knowing that I wouldn't see him again for a while. I miss him already. His birthday is coming up- 7 September 2008- Sunday. He will be 19 and that's where the problem comes in. You see, I am only 15, i will be 16 in Decemer. I haven't told him that I like him yet, but i think he already knows. At least we email each other almost every day. If Ihaven't told you, he went to Iraq.  At least I have communication with him while he is in Iraq. I must admit, I regret a lot of things, but I dont regret meeting Dustin. He treats me with the utmost care. He is an absolute great guy and fun to be around. I can really be myself around him. I can tell him everything, at least that's what it seems like. I trust him with all my heart.