5 September 2008

It's been a whole day, and I haven't talked to him. If you count today, it's been 2 days that I haven't talked to him. It bugs me. Idk if he is ok or not. It's funny, I act like his gf, if he had one. I wish I could be his gf, but lets not get into that. Idk when or if he gets to ever come back for a visit again this year. At least we still talk by email, sometimes. I just wish me and him could talk on the phone. I miss his graet voice. Other than looks, he's got the greatest personality in the world. He is the sweetest guy I have ever met. I kinda wish i were a better person. I have major attitude problems, but just the fact that I really like him, makes me wish I was as great as he is. It's pretty  great that he is serving our country, but I wish I could see him again. Dustin is one of the best people I have ever met. Idk what he thinks of me. Idk what to do, he is tghe closest thing to perfection. I just felt a connection that day when he held me and comforted me after me and my bf had the hugest fight ever. I wonder if he thinks of me when/while he is in Iraq- then again, he probably thinks about all his friends and family.  I cant wait to talk to him again. I have never felt closer to anyone else. He's like my best friend. His opinion matters most to me. What he thinks of me matters most to me. I have a picture of him on my phone. It's my wallpaper for my phone. The song"Stronger" by Kanye West is his ring tone for when he calls me. I look at his picture a lot, even at school. It keeps me motivated. I don't want to disappoint him.