see but isn't having a relationship on campus one thousand times more dangerous and terrifying than having a long distance relationship? Is that why e was actually so freakin' appealing to me? I mean, I run into EVERYBODY like...all the time. I haven't REALLY had anybody that I've desperatly wanted to avoid yet but I imagine it won't be pretty...and it won't be possible. Though I suppose there are times that I don't run into people for a few weeks...others I run into four times a day... and you just KNOW that if I got with someone that if and when it ended...id see them like, every two seconds.

I mean, I know this is silly to be thinking about just because of this one boy. But he's the first person I've actualllllly posssssiblyyyy had stupid feelings for. I mean, all this kissing and silliness has been uber amounts of fun... but he's the first one that has been legit.

I don't think I'm ready for how scary this could be.