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tommoro is ma partyyy and i am so exciteddddddd. i get to see all my favorite people in the world. and e. yuck to the last bit. but at least i understand that hes just an asshole now. you kno who's not an asshole? b. he is one of my best friends at this point i realized. and its weird..cuz i never see him yet i always want to talk to him. something will happen to me and ill want to tell him about it. not in the same way i used to want to tell e about things. that was like a, force him to get to kno me kinda thing. this is more a i like to hear b's opinions on things.

hes just kind and compassionate and even if he doesnt care about me... he acts like he does and ithink thats really really important. rather than actually caring about me and acting like he doesn't which most boys generally do. and he put thought into my bday gift and agreed not to get it for me when i asked him to please please come on the train and save me from awkwardness instead.

i am so excited for tommoro though and im IN LOVE with my shoes and my dress and my coat. Like, i dont think its possible to love an outfit more. I AM SO EXCITED AHHHHHH. and i get to see shrey and kar tooooo. yayayayay.