Well I decided to leave my computer at work so that I would not drive myself crazy waiting for Joh to come online.  Fortunately, the internet was off so it all worked out.  I did really miss him!  Iam hoping to pull myself out of this zone until I se him tomorrow and he makes me weaker again then I would be back to square one.  For now I am doing quite well today unlike sunday night and yesterday I almost went of my rockus.  Goee this love things is osmething else.  I wish he knew that I can give him all the love he needs and more and it seems he can do the same. I still had him in my dreams so that's pretty serious, anyway I' gonna work this lord,...