A dreary day at work. I think its going to dag as I'm a countdown to my birthday, but then heavens knows why.Thinking about it this afternoon started to really depress me. Of course I dont want to work on my birthday, but it being a Sunday I have a feeling I could quite easily spend it alone and without speaking to anyone and that is a sad thought. I'm certain I could invite myself places and I'm sure people will be available to speak with but the closer I get to Sunday I think about E and A and S and even J. I'll be gutted if I dont hear from any or all of them. In fact knowing how I am, I will build so much pressure on how important it is to me to speak with those people on the day, that it will blow out of all proportion and lead God knows where. A, S and J have their own worlds to worry about but I have to believe that on my birthday I'll be worth at least a 30 second, 10 p thought. Wont I? I'm sure I'll hear from E, but again I'll be really upset if I dont. And this thoughts are swirling round in my head with 5 days to go... Went to town tonight and played snooker with P and P. I won the first game only. Was ok, bit of a laugh.