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Went into town this morning and had a haircut. After I went over to Glos and watched Kai playing in a football tournament with J and C. Was what they call a partly cloudy day but when the sun came out it was very warm, so much so that I have a bit of a red face tonight!
Went to the quiz tonight, E not there again as she had gone out with all her friends for her birthday. Again, made me a bit glum to think that this day the last two years we hosted nice bbq parties for her birthday. It will never happen again. Similraly tonight at the quiz, it went ok (teamed with E's dad and Tony and David, two old guys who are always there) and we came 2nd. But after the quiz I felt sad. They all sit around and discuss upcoming village events and while I am included in the conversations I def feel like an outsider now, I'm not part of it anymore. I should make the effort to try and cut myself off, its the only way the pain goes. But its hard. As I was heading out of the village feeling a bit sorry for myself a fox ran out in front of me, I tried to break but I went over him, I felt a big bump. I turned round and went back and he was alive in the road, unable to do much but lift his head and look and try to drag himself off the road. I know foxes are considered vermin but I felt so sorry for it.