Thinking today about regrets. Could I list my top 5? But then how do you categorise a regret? How do you distinguish between a "should have done" and "wish I had" and even "I shouldn't have..". I think in this context, the regrets have to be "shouldn't have done's" - so how about, 1. shouldn't have ignored my mums problems. Could I have saved her life? 2. Shouldn't have neglected school work when 16, 17, 18. 3. Shouldn't have stayed at G4 all those years. 4. I shouldn't have married C when I did. I don't think I can look back and say I shouldn't have, coz I'm sure I loved her etc etc just why rush to get married at 24 and 21. Bit silly that. 5. I shouldn't have got involved with K, i.e. cheated on P. Not just from the purely "that was morally wrong" angle, but from the "it was a silly thing to do" perspective. I'm not even saying P was The One, maybe she was, but she was the easist one, the one I coulda/shoulda. And to blow that was a big mistake. But then if she wasn't IT, then who was? S thinks she is, I dunno, I don't think so, not really. Can someone who never really was be considered? Hmmm... A thought for another day. So, all these 5 have made me what I am today and changing them would have changed a lot I think. But that's life!
But to more mundane matters, car back at garage today to re-mend my water leak. thankfully it was a simple plug and they didn't charge me.
Skittles tonight and we got whopped ten nil against the YM's. Bad for the team but at least I shone again. 65 for the second consecutive game and 2nd highest score on the team. Just as well we were getting thrashed as once again the 'who plays' shennanigans overshadowed the game. A lot to talk about at this years AGM it seems! Had a couple of texts from J while at skittles, first asked if I was dead! Bit odd seeing as how we don't usually chat in the evenings! Friday tomorrow, thank God. Tired and in need of a few days rest. But then I say this every night and that doesn's stop me sitting here looking at this screen until after midnight day after day!