11:04 AM - i NEED to get out of here
so. my life is really starting to piss me off. everybody hates me, including myself, and especially my parents. seriously?? what tha fuck!? the only people who are designed to love you, the people who created you, hate you guts. can you picture that? well i fucking can. all my parents do is punish me for stuff i wanna do that they couldnt do when they were my age. 16 is so fucked up. its no wonder teen suicide is at an all time high. if everyones parents were like mine i would want to kiil myself too! fuck! they just grounded me for a month because i wanted to quit band! i mean come on! its my fucking decision! instead i haf to stay in band for another month, until marching season is over, and i cant go anywhere except for band practice outside of school. are they trying to control my life? first im robbed of my childhood, and now im their little minion that has to every last thing they say? compared to most of the dirt bag fuck heads at my school, im a pretty decent child any parent would be glad to have! fuck! if they only knew how much i hated them. so i came upstairs cuz i guess there was something on the news about a player fer the colts, my fave NFL team and then my step-mom was all "we need to talk about this band thing" cuz ive been skipping rehersal cuz i dont wanna be in band anymore. i skip morning practice, i skip after school practice, the only time i do go do band is first period and only because its on my schedule. before and after school aren't. all i want to do is quit band! why are they making this so difficult? long story short, i got grounded for a month...all because i dont want to do something ive been doin for six years anymore. i gaurantee if they wanted to quit something, like their job, theyd do it no questions asked. so why are they making this so difficult for me? "to taech me resposibility. SUCK MY FUCKNG DICK! respinsibility my ass. they just want me busy doing something "productive" so they dont have to keep the much unwanted eye of a fucking hawk on me. honestly? what the fuck am i gonna do? light the cat on fire? im not a fucking little demon child. ima fucking angel. and im one of those few people who tend to cry when they get really fucking pissed off, so right in the middle of my sentencing, i decided it was time to leave cuz i didnt want to fucking listen to them anymore or i was literally going to strangle my step-mom, so i went into the bathroom and took a shower. well some might call it that, but all it really was was me standing in hot water really pissed and crying, and tryingto decide wheather or not i should run away now, or in the next month. all i fucking wanted was to quit band. now everyone from the band director, to my parents hate me. why couldnt i just skip 16 years old, and go right on to, oh i dont know, OUT OF THIS FUCKING SHIT HOLE OF A TOWN?? no i take that back. THE WHOLE FUCKING STATE. they can plan on never seeing me again for christmas.
and i still have to wait until i graduate til this shit's over?
that........
631 days.
15,144 hours.
908,640 minutes.
54,518,400 seconds.
does anyone know how much it costs to get emancipated?get back to me one that one.
im not even going to bother signing this one.
location: Home
music: death breath - bring me the horizon
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