these are the best days of our lives

 ok, so i was a tad dramatic about never talking to jessica agian, considering i have school with her, and i go to the divorce class every sunday with her. a little ignorant too. but i was fired up and angry so .. you know i will say some crazy stuff. tommarows the matches concert i think im going *shrugs* like i dont have my ticket wich is way bad, and tommarow from ten to like 3 i have a set build for the alice in wonderland play at our school, im not in the actual cast, i signed up for the crew though. i should have time for both, its just getting the tickets wich sucks. because i dont know if my dad can. 

i really like the commercials with one person being a decent human being, and another person watches so then they do somthing nice and then ect. their calming haha. 

i went to sams today we walked to his drum lesson place and i read my book while he practiced and stuff then we went to his house played games cuddled the usual smile laughed blah blah, he laughs at me alot haha i like it though, its cute and he thinks im cute. i just wish we could be completly alone. i dont like to do sexual things because im afraid of somone walking in. we wouldnt get in as much trouble as it would be occward plus i just want like a week to just live with him only us, and we could sleep together, . (as in cuddle not fuck) but we might do that to, which is why im not aloud with him alone. haha. 

omg speaking of sam hahahahaah today i could here theese kids behind us saying, is that a boy or girl, they were trying to decifer what gender sam was i turned around and i was like.. he's definitly a girl. haha sam turned around, he already new they were talking about him because they were loud as shit, and well since they asked then i pointed out the obvious and teh found that he was a boy haha its just sams hair is long, and were known as the weird kids at school but im nice to people, somtimes they can be afriad of me. but they find that im weirdly nice and that alone weirds people out. haha see but i enjoy being odd, unusual because the judgemental kids, stay away from me, i get to skip there crap because there judgemental and dont give me chance and im glad, saves me the time as well as theresi dont want those people as my friends anyways.

my god this caste is killing me. its annoying its a good thing its only on my wrist and not my arm, its so hard to type with one hand and if i do with two then i have to hold my cast high in an occward position so it doesnt hit buttons on the keyboard. and its uncomfortable, and it smalls bad haha i cant take like a normal shower, i have to hold my arm out. i know could be worse, much much worse, i am grateful for everyone and and thing in my life.