these are the best days of our lives

 hmm i kinda hate note having this like written, but writting is so much more of a hassle, like with writting i think you get more feeling and stuff, but with typing you get more details. so yesterday was fun, and halloween :) we actually went trick or treating, haha and were in 10th grade. there were alot of people at sams party, it was fun. i was really tired though, i think it was a little to crazy for sam, people are like.. really distructive it bothered me how they just didnt care about his grandmas house, i was excited to see hunter P, but .. he wasnt being cool, like he was being one of the more distructive people there.. and like yelling and stuff i mean his parents could probally here everything, and people were saying you know pervy jokes, and letting out curse words like crazy. I think it was just rude, sam was to busy trying to get people.. hunter and his friends to stop.. taking the eggs out of the refrigerater? how could  they dp that i uderstand one but they took a lot, i mean thats not right those arnt theres and someone had to pay for that, and not just so they could throw them at someones house. maybe i sound liek a party pooper, but it wasnt cool. and they already bought food, snacks for the party god hunter poured drink in the chip dip? thats disrespectful. overal it was fun though, regardless of the mess makers. i was fantasising about sam and me wondering off into a shadow, left from the moon, and having him take me off my feet, and you know get it on. haha but i wouldnt really because thats whoreish, haha and i wouldnt risk having his parentals find us. talk about oquward. then me and alison went to torias, i kinda felt like a third wheel, however i was to tired to really care. we didnt do much though, we were all pretty much on the floor, haha. im going to regret this, but i kinda want to do pot or somthing just to get high, i think its just somthing you should try atleast once, i am in high school. and in high school you experiment, not saying i wanna go and do all the drugs and get drunk and all that, but i dont know, yeah i can entertain myself without drugs and im proud of being able to stand by that, so i dont think i will do anything. I just think about it somtimes, and wonder about it. and without the drugs, im not exactly clean, like i have been completly naked with sam. no sex. but we have both seen all there is to see. jeeze. i dont think doing that stuff is bad, but sex might feel good, but the hole thing of getting pregnant just wouldnt be worth the risk. vittoria and omar have had sex. like 4 times? maybe more i dont know. but if she  gets pregnat she wont have trust with her family, not to mention she will have a child at like 16. not somthing you want.  wich some how reminds me.

. i hate fakes more then anything, i hate cheaters and liarss, if your lieing then your individual self, doesnt really exsist if you make one up. your simply another charicter might as well hop in a book. because in reality, you just dont exist, unless your honest with yourself. thatss what i think anyways.