these are the best days of our lives

Another eventful weekend, however i didn't spend any of it with my friends, i was going to have a sleep over with vittoria, but that didnt happen. Its ok though, i wasnt in the mood really to have a friend weekend, but next week Will be one. I need a sleep over, since its been a while. Although i wasn't with my friends i stayed busy, i really wanted more down time, but then agian i always want more. There never is enough weekend, even if this one was a three day weekend, since we got monday off.

Friday i rode the bus home with my mom, so that i could get up early and go straight to the Renaissance fair.On the way there we stopped at mcdonalds, i got some hash browns. The guy at the counter really caught my attention, simply because he was one of those people that really looks at you when they talked, like made you feel either like your just really pretty, or you have sothing out of place on your face. Maybe it was just me because i couldnt tell if he was the same way with everyone else, but he kept looking back in my direction like i was the one ordering, but it was my mom who was doing the talking.  He was dark but had really light eyes, he just looked really soft, like somone who you could find yourself really close to without knowing you were closing any distance. ....I felt a little self consious, my hair was wild, it looked darker then usuall because i had not brushed it, which also made it real wavy, not vittoria crazy, but a crazy for me. ...I was happy to be back in the car.

The fair was alot of fun, since they had a lot of cool stuff. Like alot of fairy stuff, they had a bunch of celtic stuff too. And one area had a bunch of Geos. i didnt buy anything, but they shows were fun to watch. My favorite were these two boys, they were adorable,  and freekishly flexible. They would bend themselfs into Furniture, they did some Jugling too, but i deffinitly found the furniture making interesting, all i have to say is they must have been pretty comfortable with eachother. I volenteered Jessica to go up there, and they threw stuff at her, and if she flinched then she would have hit the stuff being thrown behind her, it was really amusing, i was hoping they would slip up and hit her.. but ofcorse they did not.  Other then that people were all dressed up, i was a little bummed i didnt get to dress up too, since i love doing so and all, im sure i could have found somthing, probally more  Gypsy like going with my clothes, but i didnt have any time to pick anything out, and i didnt think about it thursday. The morning just came sooner then i thought it would, then agian most mornings do.  It was still amusing, Some people on the other hand shouldnt have dressed up quite so much. This one lady with way to much make up, was dressed up like a street whore i guess. Or thats how she looked, and she wasnt the skinnyest thing if you know what im saying.

After that my mom took us on a surprise adventure, we went up near the tappohanok and camped out. We took  moe along too, we got him a cheese burger from mcdonalds, and i dont think he could have been happier, He always gets left at home, so that was nice. Me and my mom did all the setting up.. while jessica kept the car lights on and entertained moe. Since it was so dark we needed the lights to stay on, eventually the tent looked like it would stand up, but while we were getting it up, i had my doubts. One thing i like about going camping is the stars are always so much more noticable then they are were i live, i can barely see them at my dads house, but that depends on how cloudy it is.  My mom and sister slept on these lay down chair things and i volenteered myself for the ground, i dont mind. its not like a woodfloor or anything, sleeping on a wood floor, that is a bad idea, i did it once at christinas house, and i nearly froze all night, I bruised up my hip bones too, from rolling around. I think hunter was sleeping next to me, but im not completly sure i just know i didnt wanna Go for warmth on whoever because i was going out with sam, and it just would have felt  weird. I dont think i liked hunter at that point or anything, well i'm not completly sure on that. So yeah, Wooden floors is a no go. That morning was wonderful, because it felt like morning, but in a good way, Like that misty feeling when its to early to be functional, and the abnoxious birds that you just want to strangle, dont get me wrong i love those birds, there part of all mornings, functional or not. We didnt stay long after that, i finished reading the outsiders, and jessica slept through mostly everything. My mom played in her phone... ever since she got new friends, shes no better then a teen age girl. Eventually jessica came around, and couldnt wait to destroy our beautiful tent, if only she was that eager to set it up. JEssica does what she wants, so that didnt take long. After that we went down to the half beach thing. It was nice, a little cold, but i dont usually get in. and that bothers me, because i remember when i was younger, maybe in middle school and i would be at a pool, or the beach and see all the people just sitting there, reading or tanning, and i thought it was such a waste of time and just, not fun, and i thought to myself when i get there im going to still play around in the water, but now i cant help but to appreciate the time i had just looking at it. I mean its not like i sat there reveled and tanned, no thanks, i like my complection the way it is, but  i didnt mind just laying down and listening to what was around me. Moe was restless but other then that it was really nice. Too bad it had to end.

I went back home so i could work on my chair. Jessica and mom went down to some meet up thing, with her friends, they went to help out this man move, He's being evicted from his home, rumer has it that he has a really cute son, but thats coming from jessica and my mom, so .. im not sure how much thats saying. My mom dropped me off at kroger, i had to walk back but i didnt mind, i needed some art supplies, for a project, besides i like walking, just freeing myself. IT was hot, uncomfortably hot, but i didnt mind much because i was in a T-shirt and shorts, and my hair was pulled back but it wasnt neat or anything. I was alright once i got in the neighborhood, My least favorite part is also my favorite part, Its right when i get out of kroger i have to follow a double laned road going in two directions for a good half mile, until i get to the court yard entrance, i only like that part because its one of those "picturte perfect" moments where, insted of feeling like everythings real you feel like your apart of some movie, and your not yourself but your just  watchin someone else walk on a road. They dont know where the're headed... but the veiwer does. I walked on the side of the road most of the way but when i car was coming i had to hope into the grass, the tall tick infested grass. Three ticks attempted on attcking me, but my hary legs always felt them, so i flicked them all away, befor they could attatch themselves. I also pasted a random person, he looked like he was having a bad day,i politly smiled but i didnt get much out of him but an awkward grunt, so i kept going. The rest of my journey was mindless, my mind was tired but my feet kept going, and thank goodness for that. The only think i was awake enough to notice, were the twitchy squirrels, and there was a car with a lisence plate of IM CHELL at first i saw it as I am shell, but then i thought it could just be Michelle but with the M and I reveresed, but at this point i was pretty delusional, and i didnt really know what i was thinking about. I cut through a few peoples yards, i felt a little guilty, but it was walk 10 yards through someones back yard or half a mile, in a pointless loop. what would you have done? Besides if im older, i dont think ill mind much if somone wants to walk through my yard, i think i'd get over it . 

I took a long long nap. I slepy all day, and all night, i didnt wake up until the next day. Monday. 

Another eventful, day. The plan was to go to a pic-nic.. i couldnt decide if i was making the right choice in going but my mom really wanted me to go, she siad that all the other parents, were bringing there kids too, well parents after all this is a singles meet up picnic.  I didn't care much for that, but she siad they would have food, and be doing stuff.. so i caved and went. It was lame at first but thats because no one was there, we had to get there early, because we helped with stuff, well i made them a poster, and jessica made one too, but you couldnt really read hers. I only made one because my mom challenged me into it. The picnic was at this place i had a soccer tournament at one time. We didnt do to good that year, from what i remember, it felt weird to go there, since there was one this weekend, and i actually siad no and ment it. Year after year i have always been there in the end for bill and my team but i really didnt want to, they stress me out, and playing defensivly if i mess up it could cost us a goal and its just so much pressure, i feel bad, because bill was practically begging me, and i think he thought i would cave since i usally do. I feel bad, Cause i really have always been there, when we had a real ruff season and alot of pepole, left we got alot of new people. and he always counted on me because i was the only one who would do anything, theyd complain and one time i was so fed up, i staight up asked them what they were doing here, at practice if they dont want to do anything cause the rest of us want to move on, it was one girl, but she got everyone to complain with her, until i spoke up and then they sided with me, and started to work agian, i mean i couldnt take it, i wasnt there to waste me time, i mean i have known bill and if he tells you to do somthing, hes not gonna just say never mind, and all we did was waste time, argueing, and i am deffinitly not going to waste any time.. talk about a guilt trip.. The picnic right. Once it got started it wasnt bad, the food wasnt great and people would come over and shake my hand, i mean its a nice gesture but idont really go for hand shaking, i dont know where there hand has been. Its not like i have a choice, Like if i dont shake there hand that would leave them.. Just standing there with there hand in mid air, until rejection its them and they awkwardly try somthing to cover it up, then they say somthing stupid, and feel stupid for saying it.. it would just be bad. so ill save them the embarrasment.  While i was eating this one kid kept looking at me, I dont know who he was but my mom noticed it too, i felt weird, because i already dont like eating infront of people,and it seemed i had a one man audience. He was wearing a jesus shirt, but if he really found the way i ate so interesting then he should have came over and talked to me, maybe i would have showed him my chewing technique.. yes that was sarcasm. I saw that mans son too, the one jessica and mom siad was cute, and believe it or not he was, he had light brown poofy hair, but it was an odd shade, he wasnt real tall, but i came up to about his chin, i think, i dont  know i kept my distance i felt to awkward, cause i felt like he kept walkign around our table pointlessly. i finally got jessica to get up and hit a volley ball with me, before i new it other people came and joined us, it was alot of fun. I like playing sports, because im some what atheletic, i mean im not better then the super sporty kids, who ONLY play sports but i think i play better then your typical person. I really like playing with people like that, they might have been old, but atleast they could play, i mean i hate playing at school because the boys are all such dicks, ,meaning they wont give any girls a chance because there girls, but i dont want to play with them anyways, because there like a bunch of lions fighting over a steak. I impressed them atleast, they asked me if i was on the school team believe it or not, i was flattered, and ofcorse i siad, no. and somoeone asked if my mom plays, i just laughed at the thought, i could have played all day, i mean like i siad they wernt bad either, the girls went to good, but alot of the older men seemed like they played before too. We played for a long time, and that sand was rough, it didnt sting but i cut up me knee and my toe. Not painful in any way. It ended eventually, as most good things do. My  mom was ready to leave any ways, so atleast the timing was good. n my way out this one guy who was playing came over to us, and siad good by, and he was real curious about what school i went to, apparently he works in the chesterfeild district, He was disapointed that i went to Lee Davis, My mom says she thinks he wanted to see if i could play or somthing, she thinks he coaches valley ball, its not hard to believe, since he was good, and he kept giving a few pointers here and there, like it was instinct. SO it was a good choice indeed. there nice people. well the ones that know, not that my mom needs me to approve the people she hangs out with. Shes free to talk to whoever she wants to.