10:33 PM - anger for the sake of it.
A bulliten omar posted on myspace, for everyone to read.
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flyingearlobe00??7:?? in all honesty
flyingearlobe00??7:?? i dont really care.
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? you dotn care
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? XD
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? i know
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? your so bamf
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? not giving a fuck
flyingearlobe00??7:?? i care about other things..
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? cell phon
flyingearlobe00??7:?? okay. sure.
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? XD
flyingearlobe00??7:?? i was kinda talking about caring about theatre and such, since i just got inducted into ITS tonight, but you know, other random pointless things work too
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? congrats
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? now you're just a little more important then you were
flyingearlobe00??7:?? okay omar. this is why i dont talk to you.
flyingearlobe00??7:?? go be fucking depressed and leave me alone
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? XD haha
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? im
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? just doin it
q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? to piss you off
flyingearlobe00??7:?? sure. whatever. i hate talking to you. goodbuye
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q12oikm03t592w2??3:?? txt me bby
hehe
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So what does this mean ? that he's going all hypocritical, cause from what i remember He was the one who siad we were shallow, who didnt understand why people make people mad just because they can, Isn't he sopposed to be the all and inspirational ? I would hate to let him see how it effected me because thats what he wants, is for vittoria to get mad, and i might just be a bonus, Hunter P and omar both just want to make vittoria mad, and its Such a waste of emotion, but how can we help our selves from feeling? I just didnt see the point in posting it as a bulliten, to make it into a show.. SO people really give a fuck ? I feel like he only did it as if he wants people to Think as vittoria as some bitch when really he is only making himself look like a total dick . Is that really how low you have sunken? To wear you can only find pleasure through Some one elses anger? thats pretty damn low, but i mean hey! at lest you are entertained. Besides that it just bothers me because omar is always preeching on and on about everyone thinking on higher levels and much better the world would be, How nothing matters, and people just do things for no reason, why people make fun of others for no reason, and how thats just pointless.. well what is that? right there? Like how can you preech about somthing you certainly do not fully believe, when your really just like everyone else, all those people that you see as "shallow" and "stupid" right? Dont let me stop you.
Thinking about omar, i really do think he felt they way abotu everything he siad in that conversation with him and sam, i forgive sam for it because i just agreed, yes i was disapointed. Omar however siad it was all out of rage, how you say things you dont mean when your mad and i get that, but those thoughts come from some where, so they have obviously crossed his mind, and i know no matter the cover he tries to pull he thinks were all shallow, shallow and stuck up and are hiding in out own little bubble, but what i dont understand is if where in this bubble, full of all these shallow emotions then why would he even dream of breaching it? Wouldnt he keep as much distance from our so called bubbled if he was really over vittoria, and if he really hated us all so much? And most of all if he was really over vittoria .. then why does the anger please him. I think He has twisted his emotions into the easiest ones to feel, and to me that is anger, He did still like vittoria but its like he had just transformed any feelings left for her, But no, that does not mean he is over her. It just means he's is caught up in a different sense. Ugh. To think name calling is not shallow enough .
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http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v683/farfaraway11/michellelovesme.png after i made that, i realized i should have flipped it. XD it should have been vittoria <3s michelle. lawl. i havent read this blog yet, but im going to. just stating why i didnt respond to it. just looking at it pissed me off. especially since im not talking to jaysen right now, hes at the movies. V.V
you know what really pissed me off about this? i feel like ive been betrayed. because at the beginning, omar was just talking to me like he normally would have, when we were friends. i thought, hey, im in a good mood, ill be nice to the poor fellow. i knew something was going to go wrong, and i got bored of talking to him, since i didnt care what he was talking about. then i said that and he posted it in a bulletin. i feel like he just started talking to me to make an example of.. something? im not sure what, since he looks like the dickhole here. what is he trying to prove? that he can piss off his ex? HE DID THAT WHEN WE WERE GOING OUT. i fucking hate that kid. and what i said to him, that i wish he would go kill himself and do a favor for us all, i meant every single word. i wish he never would have moved here in the first place. all our lives would be better. half of our friends wouldnt think these ridiculous depressing thoughts. damn i want jaysen so badly right now, because i dont wanna be angry. im so TIRED of that emotion. and especially tired of people thinking its funny, because no one takes MY anger seriously. is it because im short or something? is it because im a GIRL? the other day at school, jaysen kept touching my ear because it gives me goosebumps. it does get annoying, but since i know hes not TRYING to bother me, i just pretty much ignore it, and hit him or something XD but then i went to talk to becca, and he came out of nowhere, and unexpectedly touched inside my ear. i dont know why, but i freaked out and turned around and screamed 'WOULD YOU STOP THAT?!!' and just turned and kept talking to becca, but i could hear everyone laughing behind me. and i wasnt REALLY angry about the ear thing, but i thought that laughing would send me over the edge, i really thought so. why do people think its so funny? i will admit to thinking when some people get angry at certain times, i have found it amusing. but NO ONE takes my anger seriously. why? is it really because im a short little girl? i feel like its the same as when friends laugh at their friends doing drugs. drugs hurt people physically, so theres nothing to laugh about. laughing at people when they are angry hurts them emotionally, or mentally. and im sure laughing at the person who is feeling anger or sadness or frustration doesnt help them feel better one bit. i dont understand people, michelle. i wonder why they do things like this. i wonder why i do, because im a hypocrite just like everyone else. i dont even understand why i do things some times. i wish you would turn on your phone, you ahole. :) alot of the times when im sick, i just feel like crying. jaysen wasnt exactly being spectacular today, but i wont annoy you with speak of the boys. ill rant about that in my blog xD hey honey, btw, when are you going to move your blog? i thought you didnt want sam to see it?