7:35 PM - Brother.
Im at my moms house, and i plan on staying here all week. Its mainly because i dont want to carpool with sam and allison. im avoiding that. i think ill pass on the awkward stares that allisons mom gives us because of the sudden tension that would be there. AS much as i would like to think there would be none.. there would be quite alot, so ill just play it safe, and not go there yet, besides im going to be in the art room this week in the morning, not because im afraid of facing sam or anything, because i would rather be in the art room, the atmosphere is so calming, and im behind on my project im almost done which gives me more drive, like when im reading a book and you cant put it down when your almost done because your so close to the conclusion its impossible to stop. anyways im not sure how math will be.. i dont know if he wants to sit by me, or if i should get shelby to sit in the middle.. im not sure what i want.. i guess it all depends on how he reacts to seeing me.
Anyways the main point of this blog, and leaving my book was because my brothers music was to loud, i was glad i saw him today this morning and he was nice to me, i missed my brother, when hes you know being my brother. He's not the same like hes so much more immature, but somtimes he can still talk to me.. half of its pointless and doesnt make sense.. but hes there, but then his friends came over, and i didnt really care because i distanced myself in some room with my face on pages, but i was suddenly disrupted with overly loud music. and it wasnt good music at that . i figured it would pass but it didnt so, i came to the realization that it was my brother and his friends outside with the car radio blasting at an un nessesary volume. I went outside awkwardly and as useless as my attempt was to politly as them to turn it down when there right there whats the point of having it that loud? i ignored the two kids sitting on the car hood and went straight for my brother in the front. he acted all cool, being around his friends, and blew me off completly, when it wasnt long before they came over he was all buddy buddy . then shawn one of his other, highly messed up friends turned around while smoking a joint.. >.> and mumbled somthing that i couldnt catch because.. hey what do you know the music was to damn loud. anyways it bothered me alot, and i just went back inside casually, and excepted my wasted attempt.