12:04 PM - and how does that make you feel ?
I feel relaxed. im tired, from soccer i finally played a game with bills team again its been a while, and he made me play. im not sure why he thought i wanted to play up, maybe he thinks why i didnt want to play was because he keeps me on defense, but i like playing back there with bills team because i'm the one who belongs there, like we have better people to play midfeild then the school team, and i dont know i felt on the school team thats where i belong but with bill i belong in the back.
anyways , sam ? I feel good.. i mean this is what i wanted was it not? and im calm, and i feel chill. Its a very good thing indeed. but theres still the half of my in guilt because i know right now hes somewhere, being sad, and i know i did that. but what could i have done ? to make this any better, there wasnt anything. i cant stay with him if i dont feel like that, i have waited and given him another chance, and it didnt work, if i didnt end what we had, i would still be thinking about just not wanting a boyfriend, and everything else and that was consuming me.
The plan is to go to KD with hunter (= should be fun, its a good way to just clear my mind. and hopefully we can see ED the boy i met last time, who is "vex's" brother, her real name is sam, but i know to many so we call her vexin or somthing i cant remember. but ED is adorable. there native indian, like tall dark and what not. ^,^ im so excited to be going to AMA with them all.