7:43 AM - Eventful
Lunch yesterday was stressful. i was already freaked out for playing later with varsity, but my sister decided to be ignorant and say you made mom cry blah blah. Im sorry, i told my mom i don't want to live with you, but im not going to lie. i refuse to live with jessica because she can be so mean, or just stupid and she wouldn't listen to what i was trying to say she just stuck with her OH YOU MADE MY CRY.. yet i am sure she makes my mom upset every other day. she's just stupid. and then i have been thinking about my brother a lot. and he has nothing left really. nothing. he isnt going to college. he has no interests. just empty.
Yes i feel bad for leaving my mom, and then telling her no i dont want to move back in. but im doing better here. My grades are better. and thats what i need. People need to be selfish somtimes. they need to be happy before then can help someone else be happy, and sometimes thats just going to hurt someone around you. but to an extent being selfish is a nessasary, i mean how can you take care of one if you cant care for yourself?
Playing soccer was better then expected. I didnt start, but that was obvious. however i played over half the game and i was happy with that, i didnt expect to play that much, but i did! and i didnt fuck up completly. i did alright. and i held my ground back there on defense, made some nice passes. im not going to lie its easier and less frustrating to play with people on that level, when i play with JV i get soo annoyed, they dont space out, and they will still run at me though i have the ball. give me a chance and back the fuck up. i can tell you that you wont get the ball from me if your close, if you want me to pass to you then run.