9:11 PM - Complaints
Im way over my head at the moment, i just miss the time to doodle, to read, to shoot a video . anything relax. but here i am covered in projects. For english i have this huge research project the good news is we worked on it in class so far. Now i have a theater project we got it today and its due next class. and its is going to require me to work on it at home, and with what time? because tommarow insted of going to the only practice that JV girls soccer was going to have this week because every day we have a game except tommarow and friday ofcorse. I am going to be stuck playing with Varsity girls soccer in their game, and i like practices better then games, as odd as that may be. I already told them i didnt want to play for varsity once... and this time it was like i didnt have a choice. i'll suck it up but the varsity coach shouldnt have asked me infront of everyone. i felt on the spot. i didnt like it at all. and i dont want to go i have things to get done.
I need to clean for upcoming guests.
My moms all depressed agian and this time its mostly about me, because she wants me back she asked if i wanted to live with her agian and i siad i dont want to live with jessica shes a bitch. Jessica is fucked up too. her lifes not bad.. seriously she lives in space. mom isnt strict or anything yet she finds the need to cut herself, all the way up her arm. whats wrong with her. i have been depressed and i have been at that point but this is not the time. this is what she wanted she wanted my dad to move out. or so she has told him for the last 5 years everyday, those miserable years where nothing was right and what was wrong? i dont even want to think about any of it. My mom is unlucky to have her, she doesnt help she's cruel and she wants her life to seem miserable but really shes the one making it bad.