these are the best days of our lives

this is omar and sam in an aim chat, the first sentence you see is what sam siad, in his blog.

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holy shit! i just realized how shallow michelles group of friends are.

 I left  a comment to sams post on his journal. I was pretty pissed at this point. I get really offended when people call me stupid. I dont want to surround myself, with people who dont want me to make it far. 

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dont worry. I'll let you be and take out all that stupidity and shallowness from your life. and if you don't mind could i just point out that the whole time .... you guys were saying how shallow we are, and all we do is talk about people.. when YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE. get the fuck over it, since when are you the conversation police? how can someone call someone shallow, and be so judge mental at the same time, but it doesn't matter. My journal wasn't there, so you could miss interrupt everything i say. I don't think at all that you guys are retarded... However i guess in the end, i do. SO what are you complaining about, that WERE shallow, and your happy, you don't have a bitch in your life right, or some one so stupid to just make fun of anymore? oh and you never talk about people. Your not shollow so , what's the issue. right there is none because you can turn to your drugs and call that a sad excuse for happiness. SO if you really don't care and you two hate people like us, then why is it like your monitoring everything we do so you can criticize it later? Maybe we should by those baby monitor things.. how would you like that ? and every time we start talking about people you can call us shallow, when we talk about the future, or about dressing up, when were having a good time, being our shallow selves, and your on the other end of it all, complaining, moping around except when your "tripping" For the record. im not scared because even though you guys are all "deep" minded.. you dont do anything about it. you dont do anything about how you "feel" or do anything to get what you want from people. from what i know. you sit around and complain about how life sucks and theres nothing to it....while you could be trying to make it bright, and make somthing to where it doesnt suck, but you dont. SO who should care enough about what you guys say when i find it hard to believe that its what you really want. its alright. Im not mad, thanks for the "411" on how you feel about "my group of friends" .. when all you did was judge them. excuse me for being so damn dramatic.

q12oikm03t592w23 (9:47:49 PM): heye
SkyInTheCloud007 (9:48:03 PM): dont talk to me .
SkyInTheCloud007 (9:48:06 PM): im stupid
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:48:10 PM): what?
SkyInTheCloud007 (9:48:11 PM): and cant comprehend anything you sam
SkyInTheCloud007 (9:48:12 PM): say*
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:48:20 PM): ?
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:48:22 PM): what?
SkyInTheCloud007 (9:53:46 PM): you can re-read it if you didnt get it the first time.
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:54:23 PM): i got it
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:54:36 PM): if your talkin about what me and sam were talkin about yesterday
SkyInTheCloud007 (9:57:59 PM): ?
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:58:11 PM): im
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:58:13 PM): so fuckin
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:58:13 PM): lost
SkyInTheCloud007 (9:59:09 PM): yeah. its ok its probally because of the way i think, i guess its to shallow for you.
q12oikm03t592w23 (9:59:37 PM): sure
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:01:21 PM): iv had a good day
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:01:23 PM): and i came home
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:01:24 PM): nd i said
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:01:25 PM): hey
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:01:28 PM): i dont know what happend
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:01:35 PM): im sure it has to do with the conversation me and sam had
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:01:38 PM): or maybe sam said something
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:01:48 PM): or whatever it is
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:06 PM): ill tell you what i think
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:08 PM): i never
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:09 PM): said
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:10 PM): or thought
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:13 PM): you were too stupid
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:17 PM): to comprehend what im talking about?
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:20 PM): sam told me
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:22 PM): you guys
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:31 PM): thought we were all "high and mighty"
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:31 PM): and i said
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:34 PM): whatever
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:46 PM): i think you guys talking about other people MOST of the time, not all the time
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:02:50 PM): is just whatever
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:02:51 PM): well im sorry for runing your day . but why do you want to associate with me, if were all so shallow.
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:03:23 PM): im sorry
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:03:25 PM): i wont talk to you
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:03:28 PM): yeah ok. well sam read my journal but i neevr siad those exact words either, and i used high and might but thats not what i ment
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:03:35 PM): if he wants to intterput me wrong
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:03:38 PM): i could care less.
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:03:49 PM): do whatever
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:03:51 PM): i dont know
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:03:54 PM): why were arguing
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:03:58 PM): i said whatever
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:04:00 PM): you said whatever
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:04:01 PM): is this argueing?
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:04:02 PM): so the fuck what
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:04:09 PM): idk i just feel like
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:04:13 PM): your mad at me or something
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:04:48 PM): yeah..... why wouldnt i be. the whole time your talking about us talking about people.. isnt that what you were doing?  
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:05:25 PM): thats what i was doing
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:05:30 PM): because sam brought it up
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:05:51 PM): so whats the issue? why are you complaining about "my shallow group of friends" when your so happy being whoever you want to be ?
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:06:21 PM): why did that conversation make me feel like i was being monitored on what i do with me frineds or what my friends do
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:06:23 PM): what the fuck are you talking about
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:06:24 PM): sam
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:06:26 PM): was all
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:06:27 PM): sad
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:06:28 PM): and whatever
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:06:33 PM): and i started talkin to him
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:06:36 PM): and now hes fine
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:06:46 PM): i dont know what the hells going on
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:07:13 PM): i wasnt
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:07:16 PM): even talking about you though
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:07:28 PM): how do you think i wouldnt be upest when you called us shallow.. and didnt even think that we could think of things other then what where wearing, how would you even know? without making that judgement.  
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:07:29 PM): he was sayin stuff
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:07:37 PM): and i told him why im finally over vittoria
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:07:57 PM): well im happy for you in all seriousness.
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:06 PM): thank you
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:15 PM): i mean you fuckin know me
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:17 PM): dont tell me you dont
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:20 PM): you know for the most part
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:23 PM): i really dont
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:26 PM): care about this
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:28 PM): so you can
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:30 PM): be mad at me
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:34 PM): or
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:36 PM): just forget about it
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:38 PM): because
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:40 PM): it really
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:43 PM): doesnt matter
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:08:50 PM): and we can just talk like normal people
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:09:54 PM): i know. i thought i new you well enough to know that im not shallow, yeah i have my moments.. do you think i would really call you retarded for speaking your mind? its not that im so mad at you.. its that im frustrated and yeah im mad. but i cant say its directed at you
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:10:26 PM): i know what you mean
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:10:29 PM): and i was just pissed
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:10:32 PM): that he told me
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:10:35 PM): you guys thought
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:10:38 PM): we were all special
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:10:53 PM): and we have a little "club"
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:10:55 PM): i was like wtf?
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:11:02 PM): why are they even talkin about that
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:11:08 PM): and thats it
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:12:09 PM): its just when you siad hey.. like you had never even just talked to sam. and of all things sam called vittoria a bitch and me stupid and that was such a judgmental thing. so i cant type and my grades arnt great.. but i have more common sense then alot of people.. and im sorry i dont like being looked down on so i was pretty angry . because its like sam feels all high and mighty and i feel like he doesnt get anything. if he thinks im so stupid then what the hell was he doing the past year, am i a self esteem boost that cant be it cause that kid has no
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:12:11 PM): confidence.
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:12:31 PM): i know you do
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:12:38 PM): see and that wasnt
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:12:42 PM): what we were talkign about
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:13:36 PM): that was me bloggin in my own free will no gossip about it, its not like i ment it like that , it was more like i was like joking. so you know if hes gonna read my shit hes doin it at his own risk, and im sorry if he takes it the wrong way
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:14:23 PM): its whatever
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:14:28 PM): i used to read torias blog
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:14:30 PM): then i realized
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:14:34 PM): i was just making myself feel worse
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:14:50 PM): yeah well ima spare him the choice and delete, it once i print it
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:14:53 PM): and i have alot of anger twords her
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:14:54 PM): but
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:14:58 PM): its gone
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:14:59 PM): i dont really
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:09 PM): its just
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:12 PM): gone
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:13 PM): whatever
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:14 PM): idk
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:31 PM): dont delete it
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:32 PM): not yet
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:15:37 PM): i am
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:38 PM): just dont add anything
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:40 PM): let him
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:42 PM): just read it
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:44 PM): as much as he wants
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:15:45 PM): so he doesnt have to deal with my stupid shallow thoughts.
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:46 PM): till he realized
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:50 PM): realizes
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:56 PM): please
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:15:56 PM): for me
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:01 PM): and for the last year you spent with him
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:16:02 PM): nope apparantly im the only issue in his life.
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:18 PM): thats definatley not true
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:16:21 PM): i think ill make it as easy as he wants
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:22 PM): and you know sam can be
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:24 PM): hardheaded
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:26 PM): no
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:27 PM): he IS
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:16:37 PM): well maybe he will think before he says stuff
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:39 PM): he makes fun of me for it xD but he is even more
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:16:45 PM): because i really dont like being called stupid.
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:16:48 PM): you have no idea.
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:55 PM): but you know your not
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:16:57 PM): i know your not
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:17:09 PM): i can atleast talk to you about stuff
q12oikm03t592w23 (10:17:11 PM): and you understand
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:17:15 PM): exactly, and i wont be around someone who thinks i am

The site wont let me post long, for its length, but its worked out and resolved. 

 I was so angry that i deleted him off my myspace, I was planning on switching blog sites, deleting this won completly once i printed it off, but he talked  to me once he saw i was off his myspace. 

ihatyuosmae (10:46:31 PM): before you took me off your myspace
ihatyuosmae (10:46:32 PM): i can see where youre coming from.  everyones a hypocrite.  it just made a lot of sense last night what omar was saying.  of course i dont know you guys.  this doesnt really matter though does it?  i have no idea what im doing anymore.
ihatyuosmae (10:46:43 PM): block time now?
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:48:31 PM): im not gonna block you off aim, because if i dont want to talk to you i wont respond. and thats easy enough i was just really pissed off. because why the fuck do you want to be my friend if you just want to make me mad, or think of me as shallow, or stupid.  i would think if you spent a year with me, and loved me as you say, then how could you be so close minded about me and the people around me.
ihatyuosmae (10:49:10 PM): i dont think youre stupid
ihatyuosmae (10:49:18 PM): idk whats going on
ihatyuosmae (10:49:25 PM): idk you guys
ihatyuosmae (10:51:36 PM): not trying to piss you off either
ihatyuosmae (10:51:39 PM): i agreed with omar
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:51:50 PM): well he already told me that
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:53:07 PM): he was only fired up. and most of it he didnt agree to looking back on it and weather he's fiull of shit or not i could careless because it wouldnt have started if you didnt take my journal all wrong, i told you read at your own risk but i dont think im going to use the site anymore, because theres no point in wasting your time with shallow, and stupi posts.
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:53:19 PM): as you agreed with omar that i was.  even though you just siad you dont
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:53:21 PM): make up your mind.
ihatyuosmae (10:54:00 PM): when did i say anything about your journal posts being shallow and stupid?
ihatyuosmae (10:54:30 PM): and what omar said just made sense to me, so i agreed. i dont really know you guys, and he does.  so i thought it was correct
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:56:14 PM): ...you spent a year with me and you dont know me ? well its not my post that are stupid but  since you agreed with omar, he siad i was stupid and vittoria a bitch, i cant help that your gonna automatically believe what someone says, i mean could you expect he wouldnt have been mad after you tell him that where talking behind you guys back and callign them retarded?
ihatyuosmae (10:57:02 PM): i know you.  but i assumed some sort of change had taken place, because i never talk to you.  and i dont know your other friends at all.
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:57:31 PM): and that were all in our own buble afriad of you guys because of what your saying, well maybe were in a buble to protect what we have, our happiness maybe, i believe what you guys or OMAR says, but i dont take it in the same way, for me its postive, and life isnt "lifeless:" and black nor is it cold.
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:58:13 PM): so thats on you for making the judgement that i suddenly chanegd, when you had all the chances you want to talk to me
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:58:41 PM): i told you i wont approch you because i dont know when you want me to or not, im not the one in pain, so i wanted you to let me know when it was ok .
SkyInTheCloud007 (10:58:59 PM): Im not going to talk to you, un knowing if its just going to make everything worse.
ihatyuosmae (10:59:25 PM): i know.  and even if i wasnt ready to talk to you its beside the point, i still dont know whats going on with you
ihatyuosmae (10:59:46 PM): what else am i supposed to think
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:00:27 PM): what do you mean whats gooing on with me?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:01:13 PM): im living life how i want to, and im not going to let people who call me stupid be around me, because i have had enough people tell me what i am, and who im not.
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:01:29 PM): maybe your asking the wrong question
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:01:37 PM): like whats going on with you
ihatyuosmae (11:01:39 PM): whats going on with you, as in, how you are, what youve been doing, how youre feeling etc.
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:02:19 PM): Well why dont you just ask
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:02:25 PM): you read my journal ?
ihatyuosmae (11:02:34 PM): because its really hard
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:03:33 PM): the only thing that im upset about is the way your handleing it, i mean do you really think that drugs are going to make you happy? SO for the rest of the life is that what your plan is?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:03:42 PM): ok reality might not be the best right now
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:03:55 PM): but if you ever want it to be somthing then you need to believe it is.
ihatyuosmae (11:04:28 PM): hopefully the rest of my life wont be that long
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:05:09 PM): so you want to spend the rest of it .. moping around? and then on the weekend a nice "trip" only to come back just as dissapointed the first time when you get the reality check  
ihatyuosmae (11:05:35 PM): not sure what else i can do.
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:05:54 PM): ...
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:05:59 PM): what i have been telling you
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:08:07 PM): To face whats happening, and to get over it, sorry harsh but, thats all you can do stop thinking about the darkness that you so call refere to as life, and think about how much of it your missing, did you ever stop to think that theres a flash light somewhere? or maybe all whole freeking happy feild of light somewhere? you like this my little metophoric lecture? because i dont know what else to tell you except if all you want is to mope and smoke, then thats all your gonna get, your gonna see everything you open your eyes too, and i cant see for you i cant make you want to be happy,
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:08:36 PM): you have to want it, and to know its there even if right now you have to face whats happened. but atleast its a step
ihatyuosmae (11:08:49 PM): but i dont want what everyone else wants
ihatyuosmae (11:08:57 PM): i dont want to grow up
ihatyuosmae (11:09:00 PM): i dont wanna get a job
ihatyuosmae (11:09:02 PM): i dont want a family
ihatyuosmae (11:09:08 PM): i dont care about seeing the world
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:09:36 PM): well then fine dont,
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:09:45 PM): but how can you know what you dont want, when you havent had it ?
ihatyuosmae (11:10:06 PM): i cant put it into words
ihatyuosmae (11:10:07 PM): theres
ihatyuosmae (11:10:14 PM): gotta be somehing else out there
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:10:36 PM): and im sure there is.
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:10:44 PM): but whats so wrong with
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:10:48 PM): what you have here?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:10:59 PM): Why do you have the need for somthing more.
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:11:05 PM): i think all people do
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:11:30 PM): because nothing is ever enough, but i mean this is just me
ihatyuosmae (11:11:47 PM): because
ihatyuosmae (11:11:48 PM): this is
ihatyuosmae (11:11:53 PM): just a material world
ihatyuosmae (11:12:02 PM): were just humans, and this is just live how we percieve it
ihatyuosmae (11:12:08 PM): life*
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:12:20 PM): So what  
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:13:16 PM): i mean i dont want to be caught in this system, i dont want to lose myself, so right now  I wont, and im not giving into society, im gonna do what i want as far as i can. i guess you can see differently and that ok, but if you dont want anything then whats the issue?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:13:19 PM): why are you sad.
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:13:25 PM): or are you happy? how it is?
ihatyuosmae (11:14:06 PM): i cant tell you how i am
ihatyuosmae (11:14:08 PM): i dont know
ihatyuosmae (11:14:10 PM): i dont want this
ihatyuosmae (11:14:37 PM): and until i grow enough balls to kill myself, im living how i want to, and thats what its all about right?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:15:40 PM): yep i this is how your happy and really want to live
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:15:42 PM): fine
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:15:46 PM): thats on you
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:21:51 PM): i think i might switch to a new blog site..
ihatyuosmae (11:22:28 PM): if you dont want me to read your blogs anymore i wont
ihatyuosmae (11:22:36 PM): or if you dont trust me you can make them private
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:23:53 PM): its not that i dont trust you, but i dont want this happening agian. and im still offended, by being called shallow and stupid, and even if omar was talking you so eegerly agreed. and i dont see the point in having you read entries about nothing important.
ihatyuosmae (11:24:32 PM): im sorry michelle,i shouldve talked to you first
ihatyuosmae (11:25:20 PM): but i was just like in shock and semi pissed and i wanted to share
ihatyuosmae (11:25:29 PM): but it was wrong that i took it that way
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:25:36 PM): I mean yeah i didnt want to end up like vittoria and omar, and yeah you should have talked to me first and im sorry for being such a little bitch but i really really dont like when people call me stupid, because thats all people have called me . and its like i dont mind you sharing with other people but you gotta think before you do
ihatyuosmae (11:25:36 PM): because a lot of times they dont mean what i think they do
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:25:50 PM): yeah.  
ihatyuosmae (11:26:01 PM): i didnt call you stupid either.
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:26:06 PM): .
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:26:19 PM): i know omar siad it but you didnt say anything but yeah yeah or somthing
ihatyuosmae (11:26:29 PM): iactually deleted a lot of the conversation
ihatyuosmae (11:26:37 PM): that was main points
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:26:37 PM): and went on, like this was a big shocker that you never thought of maybe it was because it wasnt true
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:27:15 PM): well i got enough of it, besides your the one who picked what to put down so im guessing that was a pretty important part o fit.
ihatyuosmae (11:27:32 PM): well
ihatyuosmae (11:27:39 PM): im sorry i pissed you off
ihatyuosmae (11:27:49 PM): and i didnt mean to say that youre stupid
ihatyuosmae (11:28:40 PM): i understand if you dont wanna re add me, or keep the blog site so we can still read each others
ihatyuosmae (11:28:44 PM): but i hopeyou reconsider
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:30:46 PM): yeah ill reconsider. but im just saying . im not changing, im the same michelle i have always been just maybe your seeing me through different eyes. I dont know but if you wanna know whats going on, or how i am or somthing then you ask me unless you really emotionally cant
ihatyuosmae (11:31:26 PM): i wish i could get over you like you have me
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:32:57 PM): its not that i would have been over you, like i still liekd you but when you do more drugs and stuff that made it some much easier, and at the same time so much harder, but its not like i just dropped all my feelings for you randomly.
ihatyuosmae (11:34:16 PM): you know id never touch another drug if thats what you wanted, if we were still together
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:35:41 PM): but thats never been what i wanted i mean yeah i dont want you doind that stuff, but i always wanted for you to do what you want .
ihatyuosmae (11:35:56 PM): ive only been doing it a lot recently
ihatyuosmae (11:35:58 PM): because it makes me happy
ihatyuosmae (11:36:09 PM): and nothing else really does
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:36:26 PM): i know. which is what i was talking about up there
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:36:29 PM): its not going to get any better .
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:36:36 PM): like  
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:36:45 PM): you can scroll up and re read all of it if you want
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:37:05 PM): to get a better understanding of what i siad cause i feel like you wernt reading some of it
ihatyuosmae (11:37:57 PM): i get what you said like, its only temporary?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:40:19 PM): no like .. i mean are you just going to keep doing drug after drug? because nothin is gonna change like that
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:40:20 PM): like
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:40:35 PM): sgrjkb
ihatyuosmae (11:40:54 PM): theres nothing i need to change, unless something would bring you back
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:41:25 PM): so what if i came back because i didnt want you to do drugs that badly, but we both new, that i really didnt want to be with anyone
ihatyuosmae (11:41:49 PM): ..what?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:42:01 PM): nothin >.,
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:42:04 PM): >.< *
ihatyuosmae (11:42:05 PM): no
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:42:23 PM): i dont have the patience to explain that any better then i already did
ihatyuosmae (11:43:07 PM): im saying
ihatyuosmae (11:43:18 PM): why not do drugs if it at least gives me happiness for some time
ihatyuosmae (11:43:24 PM): instead of being sad all the time
ihatyuosmae (11:43:41 PM): and why does it even matter if im not gonna be around that long anyway
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:44:44 PM): ihatyuosmae: why not do drugs if it at least gives me happiness for some time
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:44:45 PM): because.

SkyInTheCloud007 (11:45:16 PM): YOUR NOT GOING TO EVER BE HAPPY. but whats the point of wasting everything you have, when you have plenty of time for rrecovory if you let yourself. 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:45:22 PM): somthing else could make you happy. 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:45:29 PM): you went on one day about how you couldnt liek anyone else 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:45:33 PM): YOU liked christina 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:45:38 PM): and thats someone else 
ihatyuosmae (11:45:47 PM): but i dont want to be with her
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:45:52 PM): so why do you 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:45:55 PM): need to be with anyoen 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:45:56 PM): ?!!? 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:46:00 PM): right now 
ihatyuosmae (11:46:10 PM): onlyif it was you
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:46:24 PM): that doesnt answer my question 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:46:29 PM): why do you need to be with me 
ihatyuosmae (11:46:46 PM): because i miss you.  and i love you and i want things to be the way they used to be
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:46:47 PM): right now 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:46:59 PM): well there not even gonn abe close 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:47:01 PM): at this rate 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:47:32 PM): because i really dont want to watch you change even more, and i ddont want to be liek vittoria and omar, but its going to be like that if you keep going on like this 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:47:38 PM): so unwilling 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:47:46 PM): to even look for any happiness. 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:47:50 PM): othen then 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:47:52 PM): one 
ihatyuosmae (11:47:53 PM): wtf am i gonna do?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:48:00 PM): i dont know 
ihatyuosmae (11:48:18 PM): youre gonna sever communication with me because i cant be happy and youdont wanna see that?
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:48:28 PM): no 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:48:30 PM): because you 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:48:48 PM): all you want to make you happy is some drug and i dont want to be around that 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:49:26 PM): im so afriad of watchign you change . your afriad of being a worthless zombie? of society? mechanical? do you think that thats going to do anything for you . ? all its gonna do is trap you 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:49:35 PM): but 
SkyInTheCloud007 (11:49:36 PM): wtvr