these are the best days of our lives

 

 

 

Before we left for teannas vittoria threw a party sam was actually going to go for once and i was all excited but then he couldnt because he wwent to omars, but i dont blame him, im glad he went i and hunter almost went ourselves, vittoria didnt invite omar she hates him, i hate her for that shes heartless in that way, how can you not feel at all. just be gone from someones life. that was not love. it was just a thing. to never talk and have complete neglection no wonder he was so caught up hell i would be too. anyways the only thing about the party was that richard gave me a comlement cause he was on the floor and me rose and hunter were dancing (while jason vittoria and teddy and them were on the couch two very distinctive groups. ) i hadn't really danced till then because i get intimidated which richard because he wins. so its like fuck you. and im shy somtimes so it doesnt work. but then he came over and told me i was getting good i could see the envy in hunter and rose hehe. and he was like i mean i was over there and you caught my attention i was like OH wow thats michelle! hehe that made me happy, cause i mean its a compliment and why wouldn't it, he also told me one day that he thinks i'd make a good mom.? that one was weird but i mean i guess i liked that one too i mean i remebered it didn't i ?  I think it was because the last time we all went to roses and this little boy was there.  anyways the last of my break  Was spent at teanna's house with my father and her four daughters. The way there i actually didnt go to sleep like i normally did i stayed awake, i was forcing myself to but i did it, and im glad we went through downtown pittberg and it was wonderful, it was dark and the lights were flashign the brigde stood in the middle of highways and intersections and city comotion and it crossed over the water in the middle of it all, it was exciting. as usually Jamie who is 8 was hyper as hell and the easter candy wasn't helping that. Bethany was the same as always as well, argueing, hyper, loud and well the most ADD  person i know.  ashley was on her period. and ofcorse since girls are all.. oh shes doing it? I WANNA DO IT TO. Even though no way in hell did i want to get mine, but i did and that sucked for some reason this one actually effected my mood, made me angry ahha i kinda just wanted to punch anyone who was a louder then nessasary right in the face, however i held off. I am usually more tolerant with children then that by the way .  i wasn't even sopposed to start until like another two weeks. gay. I didnt help that Jamie wanted my attention all the time and my dad went to walmart and brought me back a book.. brilliant right? NO because that just edged me more that i couldnt read it because people were loud but i can tone things out really well, so i guess it was alright, im reading book two from the twilight series its the biggest thing latly, i like the books now i dont think their like OMG BRHFABDHFB TWILIGHT but its entertaining as a book should be, this book although was one of the most annoying things i have ever read in my life span so far. You see it was one of those things were YOU know whats going to happen and you want it to happen so badly however it has to take some time to do so and it just kills you because you dont care about this or that when you know how its going to end up anyways and oh my freeking god! it took forever to get to the good part i read non stop because it edged me ! im almost done, im surprised im not reading now considering its the end of a book, and when that happens its typical to read non stop because your so close to finding an ending, to summing everything that you have experienced through the book up, and thats a great thought, but i know theres another book so the ending wont be the least bit satisfying because i know theres two  more books so she (the auther) will leave me on some completly open note to start the next one with, yep no happy ending what so ever. which is probally why im not stuck in the pages right now. 

I think one of the reasons people like to read so much is because its better then their reality, im not saying thats my reason but i mean, i know when i read i can relate ( i love when that happens because its like FINALLY someone else atleast knows that emotion knows what im feeling, even if their not realy people, i just sometimes wish i could get in there, tell them that i know exactly how they feel and build off that one emotion ) and when ever i can relate i compare myselves to them the charachters i dont usually replace myself as them because like i siad im not for the whole this is better then my reality thing, however im all for comparign and relating somtimes i can put faces on the charachters like my friends like oh this is like blah blah whoever, or somthing like that. 

Anyways i didnt read the whole time we were there, we also played alot of UNO but it was extreme, there was a machine with it that shot cards at you, it was fun. 

We threw my dad a mini surprise party it was cute i must admit he seemed to like it, he liked it alot when myself and rose and hunter baked him a cake, and it turned out not so bad. It was yummy too and im not a chocolate fan. Somtimes beign at teannas is awkward more then i would like anyways because they can be cuddly somtimes, i mean i have seen them kissed and they sleep in the same room im ok with it, but its just weird thats all. At least he is happy, but i mean i dont do that stuff with sam infront of him, i think if he is willing to snuggle and kiss here and there with her then he should be willing to except that i can do that too. Its only fair because he is displaying it.  however im still going to spare that awkwardness for another time, im still not doin anything with sam around if my dads there, obviously thats just gross. 

We also went to this factory that did Fiesta plates and fiesta whatever else. thats the dishes and whatever we use, they had teapots next time we go i will look agian because i want one, but we only buy from the second department because thats all the sale items and they didnt have a tea pot i wanted. If you buy them from the first place then they are much more expensive its because the second room where there all on sale are the "defective ones" however most of the time they look perfectly fine.  It was a nice drive there it was on a lil island we had to cross a slippery bridge it was nice though, everything is much prettier there then it his here, there are montains everywhere and the houses are worn down and out of breath .  but they hold stories and i like that, unlike alot of the homes here where you cant see anything past the newly placed roof tiles, but the people there are different too, i dont like them really. they shout when you drive by, with no reason i really dont like loud, yelling or anything i liek to be relaxed and yelling is anything but calm. it makes me jump because im flinchy and i dont like it. its just a different place, i dont think they would except me  for who i was if we moved there, i'd love the envoiroment its the people that scare me. One point in the car i got into some weird thinking thing but i realized i was singing along not to loud though, and i was still able to think and concentrate it was a weird feeling, like i was mechanical and that triggered this whole thing i remebered talking about with sam, about just being a machine, and yes its true but not for evertyone some people can get out of the metal box their in. i hope anyways i dont know. For some reason i was tingly at the time while thinking all of this, while the music got intense and up beat then the last song did and i dotn knwo sam was in my mind somewhere but i wasnt focused on that, he was there anyways. Im not sure but it was like i getting an adrenaline rush though there was nothing going on, i wasnt being chased, or yelled at i was sitting in the car calm as ever, but i was more ready then ever do jump to run to get out, or spin anything but sit it was craZY insane.