4:33 PM - were done!
We did it we got through our one act, i was so sick the whole day, but it wasnt because i was nervouse, like i was actually sick. i think i had one of those one day stomach viruses, like i felt so sick, i wouldnt have gone to school if we didnt have one acts, i thought i was going to throw up, and i kept burping those gross burps, like before your going to through up, i was so scared that i wasn't going to be able to preform. SO during theater class today i couldn't do warm ups because i felt so sick, and his policy is if you cant do them then you have to go to the clinic, and like while the asistent teacher lady wrote my pass i started crying and it was rather embaresseing, cause i dont cry usually, so she wrote me a pass, and i'm like breaking down cause, i felt so shitty, and then the thought of not being physically able to do one acts. So i went to the clinic and then mr. prince came so i got sad agian and i Hid in my hands haha. It was funny cause mr.prince was trying to distract me so he started talking about the apple juice at our school and i was like wtf? haha. and then i went pack to class and presented our monologues but on the stage and on a cube that if you fall off then YOU FAIL! haha i messed up once, cause my previous break down, like we presented last class and i didnt mess up at all. I liek being on stage better though then the black box, because you feel the seperation between you and your audience, and i like that better.
I didn't eat at all yesterday either, i was afraid it wouldn't you know stay down. >.< but i drank water lots of water, which later resolved in constant peeing haha.
Our one act went first, i still felt sick but i got lots of medicine from the clinic, it deffinitly helped, but the distraction of preforming helped, to because i didnt focus on how i felt. We got through it, and we did alright we changed like most of the blocking in an hour, and we sped ran through it so we really didnt get to practice an actual run through of the new blocking, before we went on that was the only part that was scary for me, i didn't mess up at all :) i got all my lines right, i think mostly everyone else in ours messed up. actually i dont even think i was shaking and typically i shake after liek a sentance of being infront of people. maybe it was the meds? haha i dont know. I think we surprised everyone there that knows our group. we were the ultimate fail group, and you know it didnt turn out half bad, but i wish i could have watched it from the audience too, and not have known the story already, i think our story wasn't that great but we pulled it off.
When they annouced the winners and stuff, We didn't win abviously but i got a best actor award they gave out like 10 or so , so it was like a quarter of the people there got one. hehe and its a little medal, i like it :) but i felt bad cause Rose and the twins didnt get one . Vittoria did though so that was cool. cause were competitive and if i had gotten one but she didnt that would have been akward, but if she got one and i didnt i wouldn't have cared just because i felt like in this there wasnt much to it that you had to do really, like it wasn't a difficult part or anything.
So my moms liek all pissed off at me or somthing because jessica has no friends i feel bad for her, she was liek all by herself, but she asks for it becauses shes a bitch, like she thinks shes better then people, and argues but she doesnt have the room for it.
And we were running short on time because a few people went to slow on there monologue like we seriously all have to talk a little fast i tried to, but i didnt want it to be to the point were i wasnt understood. Anyways they cut her last seen i mean she got her main seen in, yeah i would have been a little upset but they always mess up too, Plus that was the most irrelevant scene in the end, it wasnt an option on what scene was going to be cut it was just how it played out, it didnt matter who it was it was simply the position and the meaning.
So i called my mom to tell her about my reward, because im not going to lie im excited about it, i mean that was my first one act, my first thing ever on stage. and i got a reward :O well before i could say anything she brought up jessica, and i explained it wasnt who she is or anything it was because it was near the end, and we didnt have time it wasnt my fault, and she brought up that her other character got cut, but that was all jesasica she siad she didnt like gale and WANTED it to be cut. that cant be used as somthing that she should get a favor for. Gale was the most irrelevant character and since no one talked to her, and jessica wanted her to be cut, she was cut.
The last time i went to my moms house wasnt any better i went there and i was sad because thy made fun of my outfit choice for one acts so i wanted to change it but then i siad it was ok i could wait till lator. and she was liek NO COME ON. so i went, and the whole way she complained about how i stressed her out and she wants me out of he life, because i cause her stress. Wow that was nice and warming. you know but if you dont want me here fine, i wont be.
music: Lady Gagga