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Tue, 27 Jan 2009

3:39 PM - Stuff ?

Fisrt sam came over in the morning, since it was a monday and we had no school my dad wasn't home hehe. That was pretty Fun (= We did the normal stuff and what not, but im on my period. so >:O erm and i feel ocward for saying this. but i mean i'd like to give sam a bj >.> but im nervous, since i have never given him one. Or anyone else at that. i wouldn'[t want to disapoint. i mean my mouth isnt that big.  Besides i know he wants me to :P i had some opertunities too. but kk wtvr.. 

 

Yesterday was alot of fun, Going to Maymont Park and all. there wasn't enough room in th car, but we still managed to squeeze in all together. Richard's mom drove, and came with us. So it was richard, rose, sam, Kory, alex, and michelle. A different michelle. not myself. haha Michelle is in my craft class and i met her last year in my art class. she was one of the older class-man like richard who came over and sat at our table in the middle of the year last year so i felt cool tehe. She's nice. were friends.

 We played tag in the bamboo forest and Richard's mom met a creepy old man, haha but we think richard scared him away.  Anyways we didnt really get to stay that long maybe about 2 hours? I never got tagged in the bamboo forest, i slid once but i was ready for it so it was alright. and no one else got hurt so thats good.  

Alex seemed kind of bum agian and me and rose were talking in skate land, about it we think it was because Kory was leaving him to go talk to Richard we think Kory likes him, and thats an issue because Kory and Alex sorta have that thing going on. So on the way home Richard's mom said some thing  like that and me and Rose were just like YES thats what we were thinking. Richard says that he likes her a little, but no way does he want to go out with her. He doesn't want a relationship. It's high school.

Anyways, so we took Alex to his house, well richard's mom did, and then Kory left with him because she lives to far to have her be taken home. and then we went to Ci Ci's Pizza. It was fun. Then we went home and sam stayed at my house for like 2 hours? I didn't Feel like playing video games or anything, i hope he wasn't bored. but i had fun, just walking in circles, of my room. Then i went to my moms house after he left, to go to school. i was going to talk to vittoria about (secret stuff.)  And then she was either going to ride the bus home with me, or going to get picked up with me by my dad and we were going to go to the mall. I want that sparkly blue dress i saw for like 6 dollars. i want to try it on it was to nice, to ignore and i want to actually get sam something for his birthday i already no one little thing im getting him. I already have it but its simple. i want to make him some thing. but i cant decide on anything and his real Birthday is today. but i wouldn't have to give it to him until his party on saturday. 

And as of today!! WE had no school. but i Kind of wanted to go to school i need to talk to Vittoria in person and i wanted to go to the mall. but The roads were two icy for busses. we might not have school tomarow. actually i just woke up. haha This weekend, im spending it with vittoria because both my parents are going out of town and im not aloud to stay by myself that long. (it makes sense) Im looking forword to it after all me and vittoria, arn;t the friends we used to be. But i dont know maybe were going to be friends like were were agian ? She's happy. Like Really happy. She liked this kid Zach agian i think she needs to lay off boys a while though. Because she is actually happy. like i dont know, she was always one to be kinda bleh life. but shes. good now. and thats Good. when we hang otu this weekend were gonna be aliens, we used to have lil make up parties and be stuff al the time. and i miss that. besides im craving a good dress up.  

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7:35 PM - Omar.


q12oikm03t592w23: hey
SkyInTheCloud007: hello
q12oikm03t592w23: whats up?
SkyInTheCloud007: mini projects, u ?
q12oikm03t592w23: nada
SkyInTheCloud007: mm doing ok ?
q12oikm03t592w23: not really =
SkyInTheCloud007: =/ im sorry.
q12oikm03t592w23: mmm
q12oikm03t592w23: do you know if tomorrows gonna be an a or b day?
SkyInTheCloud007: i have no idea
SkyInTheCloud007: lol
q12oikm03t592w23: do you know how shes feeling?
SkyInTheCloud007: i do i guess
q12oikm03t592w23: ?
SkyInTheCloud007: she's happy ?
q12oikm03t592w23: so like she doesnt care
q12oikm03t592w23: or is she mad at me?
SkyInTheCloud007: shes not mad at you
q12oikm03t592w23: she just doesnt like me anymore?
SkyInTheCloud007: mm i dont know that one, but i can find out?
q12oikm03t592w23: no
q12oikm03t592w23: its alright
SkyInTheCloud007: mk =/
q12oikm03t592w23: =(
q12oikm03t592w23: do you know if she liikes someone else?
q12oikm03t592w23: like honestly
SkyInTheCloud007: well honestly, she does. but that didnt have anything to do with whatever happened whith you two
q12oikm03t592w23: mmm
q12oikm03t592w23: can you tell me who?
SkyInTheCloud007: yes but i dont think i should. (cause i dont if vittoria would want me to and its her secret not mine)
q12oikm03t592w23: michelle
q12oikm03t592w23: i have nothing else
q12oikm03t592w23: its not like
q12oikm03t592w23: its gonna make me feel
q12oikm03t592w23: any worse
q12oikm03t592w23: then i already am
q12oikm03t592w23: its been so long
q12oikm03t592w23: and she
q12oikm03t592w23: just
q12oikm03t592w23: stopped
q12oikm03t592w23: ='(
q12oikm03t592w23: i just wanna know some things
SkyInTheCloud007: its doesnt matter, its not me secret to tell. i can tell you but i just have to make sure that thats ok. im sorry.
q12oikm03t592w23: ='(
q12oikm03t592w23: alright
q12oikm03t592w23: well
q12oikm03t592w23: what should i do michelle
q12oikm03t592w23: i havnt stopped crying
q12oikm03t592w23: i dont wanna do anything
q12oikm03t592w23: i mean
q12oikm03t592w23: everything
q12oikm03t592w23: was so good
q12oikm03t592w23: and then
q12oikm03t592w23: she just
q12oikm03t592w23: stopped likeing me
q12oikm03t592w23: and im so clueless
q12oikm03t592w23: and i cant talk to her
q12oikm03t592w23: and no one tells me anything
q12oikm03t592w23: i mean iv liked her since 7th grade
q12oikm03t592w23: i cant jut
q12oikm03t592w23: just*
q12oikm03t592w23: get over it
q12oikm03t592w23: i cant even sleep
SkyInTheCloud007: =/ well obviously you cant just get over it, so as far as what to do. yyou just gotta take one day at a time. you cant hide from what your feeling because thats even worse, because its there. Try to sleep
SkyInTheCloud007: but liek she didnt like anyone at all when you two were going out. (just so you know)
q12oikm03t592w23: its alright
q12oikm03t592w23: i just wanna know
q12oikm03t592w23: if shell be better
q12oikm03t592w23: with whoever
SkyInTheCloud007: are you sure everything was as good as your telling yourself?
q12oikm03t592w23: i know there was a few problems
q12oikm03t592w23: on my part
q12oikm03t592w23: but you cant tell me
q12oikm03t592w23: we werent good together
q12oikm03t592w23: all thsi time
q12oikm03t592w23: 8th grade
q12oikm03t592w23: too
q12oikm03t592w23: and now she doesnt want me
q12oikm03t592w23: can you tell me if shell be better off with him?
q12oikm03t592w23: or could you please just tell me
q12oikm03t592w23: itll make me feel better
q12oikm03t592w23: or just idk help
q12oikm03t592w23: your her closest friend
SkyInTheCloud007: I dont know omar, its just highschool. people experiment. so being better off or not. its just highschool
q12oikm03t592w23: but itll help me
q12oikm03t592w23: if
q12oikm03t592w23: they really like each other
q12oikm03t592w23: then
q12oikm03t592w23: i know
q12oikm03t592w23: shes not gonna come back to me
SkyInTheCloud007: Well its just a crush.
SkyInTheCloud007: omar, regardless, of if she'll like you agian, which no one knows. she doesnt even know
SkyInTheCloud007: but you cant just wait because theres nothing that says she will. she doesnt know.
q12oikm03t592w23: its just hard
q12oikm03t592w23: to sit here
q12oikm03t592w23: doesnt matter whatever
q12oikm03t592w23: it just
q12oikm03t592w23: feels
q12oikm03t592w23: really bad
SkyInTheCloud007: then dont sit there, dont ignore whats going on but dont be a total potato
q12oikm03t592w23: im still doing stuff with friends
SkyInTheCloud007: see thats god
SkyInTheCloud007: good*
SkyInTheCloud007: !
q12oikm03t592w23: but its just hard
q12oikm03t592w23: i mean
q12oikm03t592w23: i did get over it
q12oikm03t592w23: in 8th grade
q12oikm03t592w23: and then was worse
SkyInTheCloud007: yes. i know its hard, you just gotta give it time
q12oikm03t592w23: is this person one of my friends?
q12oikm03t592w23: can you tell me that
SkyInTheCloud007: idk i shouldnt have told you she likes anyone now
q12oikm03t592w23: i knew she did
SkyInTheCloud007: But she didnt at all when you two were dating, just know that
q12oikm03t592w23: i know
q12oikm03t592w23: i know
q12oikm03t592w23: she told me she wouldnt doubt it if she went out with someone else
q12oikm03t592w23: so i knew she did
q12oikm03t592w23: its not like im gonna go and kill them
q12oikm03t592w23: or interfere
q12oikm03t592w23: it would just make me rest easier
SkyInTheCloud007: no i know
q12oikm03t592w23: but she is your friend
q12oikm03t592w23: so you dont have to tell me
SkyInTheCloud007: i know, i cant .
q12oikm03t592w23: you could
q12oikm03t592w23: if you wanted
q12oikm03t592w23: its not gonna hurt anyone
SkyInTheCloud007: its not about what i want to do
q12oikm03t592w23: just hurts me if id otn know
SkyInTheCloud007: i cant tell whats not mine to tell.
q12oikm03t592w23: but if you know
q12oikm03t592w23: then you know
SkyInTheCloud007: you dont need to know. what diffrence would it make who it is ?
q12oikm03t592w23: it would help me
q12oikm03t592w23: thats all
q12oikm03t592w23: its just
q12oikm03t592w23: she got over it superfast
q12oikm03t592w23: and already likes someone else
q12oikm03t592w23: and shes
q12oikm03t592w23: the one who always said
q12oikm03t592w23: all this stuff about the future
q12oikm03t592w23: and i always said
q12oikm03t592w23: chill out
q12oikm03t592w23: lets just live right now
q12oikm03t592w23: but then
q12oikm03t592w23: she
q12oikm03t592w23: just didnt like me anymore
SkyInTheCloud007: its just being excited.
SkyInTheCloud007: like i dont know things happen. and shes just realizing its high school.
SkyInTheCloud007: like most people dont even know who they are in highschool, how can they knwo what they want
q12oikm03t592w23: theres
q12oikm03t592w23: 2 years left ?
SkyInTheCloud007: yeah
SkyInTheCloud007: out of 4.
q12oikm03t592w23: out of 12
SkyInTheCloud007: im just talkign about high school. and the years arnt important, time isnt what matters. its just enjoyign what time you have left
q12oikm03t592w23: yea
q12oikm03t592w23: well i dont doubt i will get over it
q12oikm03t592w23: eventually
q12oikm03t592w23: but
q12oikm03t592w23: wev all been like
q12oikm03t592w23: basically together
q12oikm03t592w23

music: Zumi-Kai

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