9:29 PM - catching up. and on the go.
well, that was a long seperation wasnt it? anyways my trip with bonnie, was alot of fun. some rough conversation had me a little disheveled but thats alright. i concluded alot of things, and found some new veiws, not specifics though. but i do think im diffrent, well i think i realize things that most teenagers or children dont. Bonnie says im older then my time, i think i like bonnie so much because she knows im diffrent, and.. what kid doesnt want to believe they are special, but it is this courage that will make us so. like when i was really little and bonnie called me her favorite.. even though it was better for me, i new she shouldnt pick favorites like that atleast not announce it, that was wrong. i understand things that even some adults cant, not knowledge you learn in school but the simpler things that people let slide. Im not suer if thats making sense, but it doesnt matter because only im going to be seeing this. i really hope to advance in my arts. im going to get back into Fine art next year i want to become great i dont care if im remebered but i want to go places, and meet intresting people. not that im missing whats infront of me, its just change thats all. When i was at bonnies we also did fortune cards, and we read one and others fortunes, you shuffle cards thinking of a question and then you lay the cars out, then you choose maybe three cards that feel good. i focused cause i believe if you believe in that stuff than it will work but if you dont then it wont, i really felt the card i chose, and they were really strong cards. All of them were powerful, and syche cards wich is really weird for one set. And one of the cards doubled the power in the cards that are around it so that was even better. it was good. also we did a diffrent kind, then next was asking questions with a diffrent set of cards, i got deffinitly for advancing in art and crafts, i also got defeinitly for being sucsessful and i also got a deffinite for getting marride. so that was cool and really it isnt but so likely to get deffinitly because you have to get three aces . We also went through her junk, we found some cool stuff and she gave alot of it to me. she liked the feeling of giving i soppose, anyways i got a bag thats from tibet its liek a sash that goes over your sholder i like it alot, also i got some more quartz, i also got one of the fairies she painted i liked it and i got this jar that i have liked since i was a kid, its got a neat shape and it has one of the painted fairies on it, it also has "fairy dust" in it. i also got some amazing jewlrey one was an anklet from india it sounds beautiful. i also got a necalace it was like gems in a cage and her grandmother gave it to her. its old. i got some other little jewlery too, and i got some cool boxes like a strawberry box with a fairy on it, then another cute lil box. i got alot of stuff not that its important but i like them alot. .. .we watched alot of movies, like Rose red, dragonfly, Storm of the centry wich was actually really sad. i dont remeber the other movies, we went out to diner at this japenease place the food was great, and the cooked infront of you, while flipping the food and tossing it here and there. For thanksgiving day we had some delicous Fondu not the traditional thanks giving but i liked it better, because it was well.. better, it felt right. her neighbor came over for a second to invite her to come eat with them, he was real nice. his name is santovious kinda cool huh?
This week came fast i didnt attend school on wensday because i attended a funeral, funeral might have the word fun in it.. but their not fun at all. i have been to 4 funerals. and i think thats to many for a 15 year old to have been too, im just glad there hasnt been more. My grandmas brother, Henry died but i knew him as Sunny he was the nicesest person, cheery really.
and then this weekend im going to my fathers parents house with jessica. i dont think they like jessica the last visit she threw one of her tanterums, im not sure what rreally went down and i never will know, but she upset my nana alot. its important to be nice to people. it gets you places.. and its gets you friends, support. my nana gave me 100 dollars for christmas! not that the money matters but she only gave jessica and jayson 50, i thinks its partially because im not rude as my sister but also that im living with my dad, and jayson is older and has a job. wich i hope to get one over the summer.
i have started drivers edd, its exciting i guess we watched a movie today it reminded me of all the movies were you see kids in drivers edd and there all in shock from the images on the screen. it wasnt horrifing they were just telling stories, but i hear at the end of the class, its pretty gross.
anyways this weekend im going to see an acrobat show that should be cool. i miss sam though were good in our relationship i have been trying to call hi9m each nigh since i havent been able to spend as much time with him. he likes when i call him. even though im not a phone person. Also being in drivers edd, reminds me that im now the agde that everyone one wants to be. you know? kids are playing pretend that their teenagers, and thats just kinda cool. the futures exciting, im sure mine will be because i wont let it be anything else.