OK havent wrote in a while. UPDATE time.

Holidays

Tuesaday Night - I did manage to play my uncle in the singles adn played very well considering. We lost 7-5 overall which is very good. Got nice and tipsy as well so did Anya, that night shall be known for many good reasons not just the darts ;) wooh holly eating the hamster lol.

Wednesday - Consequence of what happened on Tuesday had to go to hospital wednesday.

Thursay - Spent the day with Anya again and stayed over at her grandparents, also went to the cinema in the evening. Saw Casanova what a great film lol i enjoyed it more than Anya.

Friday - Ummm went into college to do some work but didnt last long, dedicided to go and see Lucky Number 7leven - very good movie with Anya and Ryan then took Anya to the bus station and then went with ryan to get kebabs (lol they english was great - lack of it) then to CGZ for abit of gaming then he gave me a lift back to morpeth for my 10.35 bus home.

Saturday - Simons and Dougs 18th bithdays, hmmm this day will not go down as a good day for the consequences of what i'am learning i did at simons party. Despite having fun at the time i upset alot of people and did some stuff im not proud of.

Most of this week ive been off, with monday the only day i went to all my lessons, partly to do with what happened on Saturday *sigh*. Choose not to go out last Night with Jared/Siobon + others. This is possibly the only time i feel bad for my actions and upsetting people which will shock alot of people.

My msn description basically tells how i feel atm - falling from heaven (use of metaphorical sense obviously)

Hmm ok the 6v6 we lost (i think) i stepped in for Nick after the first map which was a confidence booster considering how good he is, and I playered really really well on the first map and showed why i'am in FM, second map meh not so good but i dont play it often.

Right on Thursday something happened which put me in a very very bad mood, despite making up that night it spilled over into Friday as well. After Maths on Friday i went to pick up a drunken(well tipsy) Anya from The Dog and Parrot and went to meet Doug (woo) and Tracey who were already inside. When we were coming out saw Jared and Siobian going in, when we were leaving I said to Anya Siobian looks much nicer in real life than of the photo's I have seen of her.....Sigh what a stupid thing to say kinda ruined the night when Anya cold shouldered me and then decided not to stay over. Were sorted now and she is staying over tomorrow night and coming to Darts (see throughs that tbh ) so i will be nervous and on top of that im playing Crosskeys A team and thus my uncle Michael *sigh* not really in the mood to get my ass handed to me on a plate tbh. Im going to get smartly dressed up and enjoy myself (as best as one can under the situation)...Bye

Right this is the boring type of post as far as Anya is concerned. Ok FM by FM I mean Oly, Nate, Angela choose to have a massive clear out of members 11 in total were kicked in preparation for the beta season starting in a couple of weeks. The number of euros is dangerously low at 2 now - me and carlos hmmm, wasn't particularly happy about Mark being kicked to be honest. But apart from that most of the others were jutisfied. Over the weekend we played Fg in a 3v3 (4v4 in reality as porthos came into the server) it was supposed to be practice for Clanbase match on Tuesday but clearout over weekend resulted in our 3rd member being kicked so we are no longer going to be taking part in CB any more. Forgot to mention we won 3-0 (sorry luke :p)

Anyhoow onto today, went to pizza hut with Jonathan and then went to computing as per normal but met Tracey/Doug on way abck and Tracey wanted me to go to the pub when my lesson finished but when i told Anya bout it basically mean i would be leaving her on her on so i stuck with myhuni instead. Tried my hardest to look as gay as possible with kiki's scalf think its working lol but im hiding it from my sis who was getting off smelling it lol (Jean Paul Gautier smell tis why). On the way home Tracey got on the bus and was absolutly pissed as a fart, so i walked up the chinese (still closed) with her in the pouring rain then we went to the co-op and I choose some food for her and then walked her very very very slowly home - im a nice lad after all. Decided im going to go to See Final Desination 3 again on Friday night and go to Franky and Benni's as well (never been before) with Anya + Tracey + (Hopefully Doug but he might be working so will be replaced with some random male so Anya wont feel jealous/paranoid or ought). Off to hopefully play in 6v6 match now later.

Oh well thanks to laffer for making updates to the system.

Right as much as I can rememember/time to write here how its goes. Right went to the dentist and after some work everything is nice now and no pain. Last Friday went ice skating and then went for drinks (pretty good going considering I had no money, my computing teacher paid for my ice skating and Anya/Jordan paid for my drinks woo ok). Weekend I did nought but sleep as far as I can remember. Monday ok during the day I wenty to see Final Destination 3 with Ryan (Anya angrily looks at me now LOL - I'll go with her sometime as well). Monday night I played darts (with new freshly delivered and supernice darts) since Tuesday was Valentines so we got the match moved since 3 of the team wouldnt be able to play well 2 since Michael dumped his girl over the weekened LMAO. Got realllllly frustrated when i didnt win my singles so got drunk lol.

Hmmm my valentines - My plan was to have Anya (GF) over at my house (no one else there) and run her a bath and have candles (scented) lit round the bath and have some chillout music play while she relaxes. While downstairs i would be cooking from stratch a lovely meal and when that is done she comes out of the bath and puts on warm dressing gown. Then we eat meal together and then move on to desert (either strawberry/whipped cream or ice cream - probably the first). Then later on after that is finished i read her a poem i wrote and then give her a nice massage. Then i didnt have anything else planned.

What actually happened was my mother said no she isnt stopping over (she uses my attitude as a reason and she tries to teach me a lesson) i beg and she still says no - ok my plan is ruined hmm. We ended up going for a chinese as a group of 8 (us 2 and 6 singles, LOL) and then we went and got drunk basically in gay bars until we had to leave. I was allowed to stop over at her grandparents (who she livesd with) but in seperate beds and rooms for that matter. Oh well i was kinda miserable until I had a chat with one of the gays and he kinda picked me up and made me feel better and once ive had enough alchol im happy and willing to be nice to anyone (if you havent spoke to me when im drunk i advise you to do so its great :p) and it was a good night.

I didnt buy any presents or cards (neither did she), but i payed for her meal and all but maybe 1/2 drinks and was nice later on if you know what i mean :)

Ok im off to class now, later....

As I lye here on the sofa listening to music on the laptop through ipod headphones LOL just feel like writing, but have nothing to say, hmm always the way. Well my mam rang up the dentist after I realised I would be in a exam when my appointment was due so I have gotten a cancellation and now its tomorrow so hopefully no were near as much pain now, although I'am becoming more tolerant of it.

Forgot to mention that I persuaded carlos and marc to rejoin Clanbase so I should be playing regular 3v3 and wooh my uncle just bought the dartboard/darts wooh - easily pleased.

Just noticed how my subject titles are always really cool :p

Okay monday went to see Brokeback Mountain with Ryan, hmm very very very slow start always wondered to myself why I had chosen to see it, but kept with it and turns out to be hmm well not sure the only movie I can comfortably compare it to is Crash but thats not doing justice to either film. The title reflects what I think of the movie ie not sure it's one that you will have to go and see yourself and for once im not going to critise/praise a movie to others.

Tuesday and Wednesday for the love of god i didn't think my mouth could get worse but it just does especially Wednesday. I'm such a bastard when im ill as well I get so angry for no reason, had a quick feel and it seems both my bottom set of wisdom teeth are coming through not just the right side and i have to wait a week for a emergency dentist oppointment *sigh* but what can I do.

Slight up played darts again seems like I'm probably playing full time for them now so thats good. Of course we got beat (opponents are best inleague) but on a high note i got the 3rd highest score with the first throw of the match, wooh me but got thrashed in my singles lol and narrow defeat in the doubles team games only the first was close after my good start. Hmm so I think that leaves Jared, Tom winning they singles and maybe Old man and Jared winning they doubles cant remember.

Good night all

LOL lyrics from Armin Van Buuren - Satellite.

Hmm okay

Tuesday 10th - Maths (predication- Failed and badly)

Wednesday 11th - English (predication - hmm if i got a U the first time then ive done better but if i got a C in this one then probably worse)

Friday 13th - Computing (CPT1 - Hmm aced :) CPT2 [only 2 of us retaking it] alright no overly confident though)

Okay boring part over, what else has been happening *scratches chin* well Anya and I have gotten bit more serious (L word involved - does that scare me not at all I already knew she did :) lmao ) and some stuff has been happening at home which isnt so pleasant (for her not me) and she has/in the process of moving out to her grandma's.

"Ah wow non squeeky bed =p! im going 2 sleep wishin u were here 2 hug n kiss n fall asleep wit u holding me! i love u so much n wana b wit u 4eva nite my love xxx" Anya - 15/01/2006 01:01

LOL @ Anya what would Kelly say

Good News/Computer Thing

Well for the project I have the music, I have a name now for the project/domain and have Anya working on a icon/logo for me :p

@ Luke - Yeh im getting on with the design and how i want things to work and decided which features i just cant in the programme - implemantation next hmmmmmmm

LOL well i after I kept my end of the bargain by going to bed early and giving Peter some sleep lmao he is keeping his by bringing all the music over so step 1 of the music project is complete

- Programme needs written
- Johnathan needs to find a hosting company
- Need to find a cool name for the project and domain

The bad thing of me going to bed before midnight means i couldnt sleep whatso ever i think i slept from 1.30-2.50 then like 6.30-9 then till 11 or something but as always myhuni is just as bad as me and we lay in bed (not in the same bed - shame) and texted each other until the wee hours quite interesting really but i think i scared her to death with the last text lol came out complelty wrong as per usual.

What has really changed...

I have but I dont how, from school to college something happened for the worse in my opinion and I cant quite put my finger on it. Just sitting here thinking about New Year Resoulations got me thinking about life in general, myself and things that have happened/happening right now. To be honest I dont like how things have turned out but is it too late to change I dont know - I hope not.

I think from now on im going to follow my own beliefs and become what i'am capable of becoming both physically and mentally. Before moving off into realms of my beliefs and other various novelaties, I'll stop.

For now ill keep my resolulations to myself but unlike others I will keep mine...

Your probably thinking how has he got time to post on christmas day of all days but meh I dont open my presents/eat until the afternoon when my mam gets back. Anyways last friday- Tuesday was certainly eventually for good and bad reasons but shall not mention here *cries because of the embarrasment*. Anyway this is probably the last you will hear of me as of tomorrow im offically in revision mode

3X Computing (13th, 13th, 24th)
1X English Language (11th)
1X Maths (10th)

Lovely and on top of that ive yet to finish my UCAS application - lovely indeed.

So while I sit back waiting for my bath to finish, bit early to contemplate on whether 2005 was a good year or not but i'll give it a shot. Mixed blessings really from people dying (RIP David)to meeting Anya (and Andy LMAO - Watching that video cheers me right up :P), to getting new things,turning 18, from being ill and accepting that ive got scottish cousins with scottish accents shudder (so cute till they open their mouths). On the whole a pretty ok year, made better from November onwards.

The cousins/auncle/aunty are coming down tomorrow so ill probably go out for a drink but apart from that nothing to look forward until new year which I'll hopefully spend with myhuni - hope everyone has a wonderful christmas and a happy New Year. LOL the electricity went off while writing this so took like 5 mins longer than it should have - story of my life meh. Baths finished now so im going to fall asleep in they and let others worry a about the dinner - I managed to burn (and ruin)a non-stick non burnable pan while making the custard last night LMAO, Later people....

Yeah well today i was a bit of a bastard and im sorry, hope you forgive me.

Seem to be posting less and less recently but covering more stuff so i guess thats ok. Right what has happened since last entry. To be honest i cant actually remember that much.

I know i was off on thursday cause i slept in past 10am so regardless i wouldnt be getting EMA.

Friday ummm some how i managed to miss the bus i dont know how though but i nearly bust a gut running after it, ran like half a mile in a minute then walked back up home, damn my sister not going to work until 9am she saw me - well i was sitting on the sofa watching friends : )
So I got later bus so i would still go to computing and maths, but i missed 2 english things (talk with craig about my resits - head of english language) and talk with gordan (one of my lecturers) about my report, but spoke to them later on so its ok i guess. Anyhoow got into newcastle after anya persering me on the bus with texts ;) , the lazy mare didnt even come up to haymarket to meet me psh (another one of your bad habits i picking up). Had to walk down to starbucks urgh to meet her but went to bank first wooh i got ema :) met my lovely and simon/jordan where with her as well, quick walk talking about music and crap, went into switch (yes okay i got it right first time - keep getting the names mixed up), stayed in they until computing then we walked up even though they was just me, anya, ryan cause of some business thing.
Sorted some stuff out then went upto Eclipse before maths, bastard bar man wouldnt serve mer even though i had my student ID card with my DOB,we dont accept those you need your passport or driving license as well - *grumble as he drinks his coke without vodka*.
I cant believe how uncomfortable it was at times in they, went in and they was the lesbian crying (gay bar after all)cause her ex girlfriend had bought her a present, she took this as she is trying to be bought back - now ladies seriosuly just chill out the same kinda thing happened yesterday (sunday) with kelly mention later on.
Met some random peeps i never knew before and some where nice even this gay lad who i keep forgetting his name but i bought him a drink [if you know me then this is a big thing a)buying a drink, b)for a gay ] but he was ok, even talked to philpa for abit and some guy anya later said wasnt nice but seemed ok to me about him nearly being stabbed earlier that day (security guard). Had to go to maths, and carol (lecturer) for the first time ever felt brave enough to ask me a question i just sat they mind blank going meh, was like the easiest question as well - lovely. Came out and got text that they had changed back to switch, i wanted to go back to eclipse cause they got a pool table :( oh well i had like 40 mins until i had to go and get my bus so i had 3 drinks in like 10 mins to make up for it :)

Had a lovely conversation in which anya cant remember saying something she shouldnt have cause well she shouldnt i guess (cough). Walked to the gate with anya and kelly then they left me to get bus and they went to franky and benni's for food. Got on the bus and talked with tracey and philipa was they pissed as a fart :) walked up home with tracey then i quickly ran home to go the toilet/get some money for fish and chips + curry sauce while she waited at the chip van on the way back a car drove up so i had to jump on the grass and subsequently (due to drinking too much in such a short time) i fell on my arse and skidded :) my leg hurt so bad and i couldnt feel my knee what so ever but the vodka numbed the pain and i got straight back up

Continue later i got to go to General Studies with my lovesome waiting :)

Okay yesterday was alright, during the day anyway. Had Anya bugging me for kisses and cuddles all day ;) what a struggle. Alison even payed for my pizza hut wooh nice. Got home and watched Training Day and Man On Fire, great films now i feel like crap cause i drank a whole glass full of vodka with nothing else and it destroyed my throat man i feel like crap. I was lying on the sofa with my durvey and i fell asleep while on webcam to Anya :) it was like 3am so cant blame me. Anyway i woke up at 4am and found the webcam (which was balanced on the top of the sofa) under me and digging into my spine - argh so went to bed and now have bad back today.

Oh well im home now - and im testing a Ubuntu Live CD i was requested like 6 weeks ago, looks good so far so i might install permantly.

Ah reet up at 6am this morning for english language at 9. Its bordering on snowing in Rothbury which is pretty nice (but cold).

Turns up like 30mins late cause bus was late, and finds paper on door telling us to go and pick up work from sixth form office :0 right that is sickening is get up at 6 to be told to pick up worksheet, OMFG im going to kill somebody - probably lee in computing with a spoon :)

Sat with Johnathan in the canteen until he had physics(sidenote - the coke machine didnt give me my coke, i can feel the urges to start killing again 1 pound wasted (sidenot to laffer - pound sign doesnt work in journal? ) arrgaharagaharghrgharhagahar [5mins later]) Ok im fine now

Got maths in 30mins time (maths lecture = sleep) then im going to get grub with anya meh silver lining i suppose.

Also on the bus my friend Jared said he aint going to rugby practice tonight because a) he got darts b) the pitches are frozen - dont know if this is a good or bad thing, suppose it means i wont be dead for tomorrow - tomorrow = my 18th.