well i need to write

just when i thought it couldnt get any worse... it DID...

i tried to start the etsy business and nothing but problems, and along with living with a leaking roof, a toilet that don't flush, ice maker broke for years, truck down n stranded for past 1 yr 7+ months, WAY behind on my house payments, setting on a houseful of treasures and nobody around to even car, SUCKS...

and i'm ill to boot and then nobody around now to help... i drove em all off as I was too needy.

problems w/help they try just have their own problems... I don't know what to do no more... dont wanna get outta bed...

and eating... well geeze meerly "exist" as I dont get to shop...

shakin head.

dont know what to do ad now i'm outta wood! and its till winter here in desert and cigs... grrr + other stuff. TAKE me HOME LORD PLEASE!

I do NOT fit...can't deal with all this all my life has been cruel

 

I think "hell" is right here with us daily

 

now its a mess and its