TATERS THOUGHTS

well today was another day i let keith take the puppy for the night i talked to chris all the time i still have feeling for him and he knows it he still know who to get to me by talking about the other girls it dont bother me like it use to when we was together maily because we are not together anymore but i think that if we can talk every thing through we will be together again i loved that time in my life i do miss him alot i am glad that we are talking again i can tell that he loves talking to me and i love talking to him their is one person that calls me stupid and says that i dont have a brain for talking to him again and that is because of how bad he hurt me but i let him have it last night for no reason because i was mad at a person and he had to hear it i tryed to say i was sry and he told me not to say sry  that he was just glad that i was telling him what was wrong with me and that i still trust him to talk to him like i did and i do still love him he and i was going to get married but i let people tell me the way to run my life and i aint letting that happen no more i promised him and my self that but he all ways will have a place in my heart no matter what

wow me and keith broke up and he moved out it happend last night and i am happy chris my ex are talking again and he wants me back he still loves me still and i still alil feeling for him not much i really want to be friends for now and take it from there

well its pay day and keith is being a ass because rent is due and he is takeing it out on me like always and my aunt wont ask him for the rent in stead she is taking it out on me  when it aint fair anything he does and no one likes it i have to hear about it and then i have to say something to him it aint a fair to me i have had with every thing not having a job and having a ass for a bf i am tired of having to put up with him and not wanting to pay the bills and getting bitched at for something that i dnt have any control over well i need to tell him that he needs to get the rent money i dont want to do that

keith is back at work today and he is going in tomorrow early and working all day thur. yes i am mad at my mom due to the fact i still have no bed  she is possed to be bso next friday when i get paid again and if i have money left over from paying the bills i am going to gwt a bed i hope i do

I DNT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE I TALK TO  THIS GUY AND ME AND MY GUY ARE HAVING PROBLEMS THAT I HAVE TALKED TO HIM ABOUT AND NOTHING SEEMS TO BE CHANGING I AM AT THE POINT OF NO RETURN WHERE I CALL IT QUITS MY AUNT TOLD ME THAT I SHOULD TELL HIM THAT WE MOVED IN TOGETHER TOO SOON HE IS MY HE IS MY FIRST TO SLLEP WITH I THINK THAT I AM FALLING OUT OF LOVE WITH HIM DUE TO ARE PROBLEMS I REALLY DNT KNOW WHAT TO DO THE GUY THAT I TALK TO SAID TO ME THAT IF I AM UNHAPPY THAN I NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT THAT THERE IS NO REASON FOR ME TO BE UNHAPPY MY GUY TOLD MY MOM THAT HE LOVES ME WITH ALL OF HIS HEART BUT HOW DOES HE KNOW THAT HE LOVES ME THAT MUCH?? I DNT KNOW ANYMORE IT IS HARD TO SAY ON WHAT I AM GOING TO DO I DO KNOW THIS THAT I AM GOING TO GET  AJOB SOON I DNT KNOW WHERE AN I DNT CARE WHERE I CANT BE WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESNT LIKE MY CUZ FOR NO REASON AT FIRST WHEN ME AND HIM GOT TOGETHER NO ONE LIKED IT DUE TO HIS AGE AND THE 14 YEAR DIFF BETWEEN US MY DAD DOESNT CARE FOR HIM THAT MUCH I WISH THAT I HADNT MOVED IN WITH HIM MY AUNT LIKES HIM BUT LATELY I THINK SHE THINKING DIFF ON THAT IT IS BEING TO BE LIKE I AM WITH MY EX BF AGAIN AND HIM THINKING HE OWNS M WHEN NO ONE DOES. HE COMES IN HERE WHEN I AM ON TH PHONE OR ON THE PC TO SEE WHO I AM TALKING TO AND TO SEE WHAT I AM DOING I AM 22 YEARS OLD AND I HAVE A DAD I AM JUST BLOWING OFF STEAM MY CUZ SAID THAT I AM TO NICE AND THAT I NEED TO PUT MY FOOT DOWN ONCE AND FOR ALL I DNT KNOW WHAT TO DO HE HAS A LAPTOP AND HE PUT IT UP SO ONLY HE CAN USE IT AND SAID THAT HE WAS GLAD THAT HE PUT IT UP SO NO ONE COULD USE IT WTF! I KNOW IT MAY SEEM LIKE LITTLE SHIT BUT TO ME IT HAS BEEN BUILDING OVER TIME AND I HAVE JUST HAD ENOUGH OF IT HE KNOW THAT I AM ON THE PC WRITING ON HERE AND HE CAME IN HERE AND I TURN THE PC AROUND AND HE SAID THAT HE IS WATCHING TV WHEN I TURNED AROUND HE WAS TRYING TO SEE WHAT I WAS TYPING ON HERE GRRRRRRR IS WHAT I FEEL LIKE I AM TIRED OF TALKING TO HIM AND I AM TIRED OF ASKING HIM HIM STOP THE ATTITUDE WITH EVERYONE AND HE DOESNT HE IS GOING TO END UP GIRLFRIENDLESS REALLY SOON !!!!! THAT IS THAT

i dont know where to start get this i am possed to get a bed from my mom due to me not having one when i moved in with my aunt i am sleeping on a air bed not comfy me and him are kinda ok me had something against my cuz that lives with us she did nada to him i can say this if he keeps it up he will be out the door well he is in the room and coming over here