5:21 PM - Gone.
My best friend is not coming home. Okay, she is but then she's gone again. I don't even know whether to call her my "best friend" anymore anyway, we rarely talk. I guess I was just hoping she would come back, things would go back to how they use to be, but nots that going to happen. I have no idea what I'm going to do next year. Anna is leaving too and who knows what Katie will be doing, all I will have here is Mike, which is not a bad thing, I love him to death, but I want some girl friends! The others I have are just not the same... obviously. I'm just as close with them and I just hate when things like this happen. Its just like 2 years ago when everyone left, I guess I made different friends, but I'm just not in the mood for making new friends. I sound so stuck up... FML.
Maybe if I read this all the time I listen to how silly I sound I will just be happy with everything, laugh it off. I need a new job, one where I can meet new people. I hate this town, it really is cliquey. I never noticed because I had a group of friends so I never needed to make new ones, now that I'm the one on the outside I can definitely feel it. After going to uni, I realized everyone already had their groups of friends and no one needed or wanted to add another. I haven't had to make friends since high school, I've always had the same ones, and any others came by association with either one of my friends or a boyfriend. They should have classes on this, friend making classes. I bet pedos would go to that... yuck. Well at least Michael's friends all have girlfriends, I won't always be girlfriend-less.
I really wish I just had a friend I could truly confide anything in, I suppose thats partly my fault though. I don't think I trust people enough to tell them anything. Even Michael sometimes, but not everything needs to be said in a relationship, I think thats probably a good thing, otherwise 5 years down the road we'll run of things to say, & 5 years isn't even that long. Maybe they should teach a classes on opening up, or talking about your feelings... I guess thats what therapists are for though. Maybe I need a therapist. Or a local add in the paper... Seeking non-sexual female friend age 20-25 for lonely girl to start immediately, must have own transportation.