4:48 AM - Lost Friends...
Its 1:48 in the morning. Michael's asleep, I'm up crying softly to my computer. I really hope I didn't loose you as a friend. I never thought this would happen. We were always so close. Why don't we talk anymore? Is it both of us or just me? Have you really changed or am I just trying to justify things? Maybe its nothing, a misunderstanding. Hopefully. Maybe one day we'll go back to normal. Hopefully.
Why do we let someone so important to us slip away? Most wouldn't dare let a husband or wife, their girlfriend or boyfriend, or their child drift away. But why then can we so easily let our friends slide right past. We love them too, maybe in a different way, but isn't all love the same in the end? I never surrounded myself with a huge group of friends that I didn't know every detail about. I had a solid group, many who I had never seen the inside of their house, but I always stayed close to just a few, never letting them leave my slide. That was high school though. Being out in the real world, where every one of your friends takes a different direction is so much more difficult. You don't see them every day in the halls, so you forget to call them, they forget to call you, you loose track of time, and suddenly you haven't seen them in a year or 2. Isn't it strange how someone we swore we would die for, who we would hug after staying up the whole night together talking, who would always see the next day, let them slip, forget about them? Maybe we need to be more careful, we need friends, & can't let them all slip away.
Wise words at 2 am.. I guess.
mood: 
Tired