3:11 AM - 9 Days...
Hung out with A today. It was nice, I'm pretty happy that shes finally back, its been so long. Obviously things won't be the same, but they will be good. I wish M would be back for good too, but he will be back in 5 days, for 3 weeks, so that is pretty good. I'm really excited for that. We have a lot of stuff planned already. We always do that, plan everything out. I never realized it but I guess its good, that way we don't just sit around wasting our time trying to figure out something to do. Well we still do that, but not as much as we would probably. So exams... a little stressed out about that, hopefully they go well though. I only have 2 more, but only like 6 days to study for one of them, and 8 for the other. I suppose that is quite a bit actually. I'm not really worried about Chem, I generally am pretty good at that, but Math I have been neglecting for a while, not going to class and it seems like I really haven't been doing much of it, but maybe once I start doing it I will be okay. I've got to start studying a lot, I will tomorrow. I feel really deplited lately, I just want these exams to be done, I need a break. I really feel just tired of all of this. Its so tiring and really defeating. I just want him to be back, for good. I want him to stay here, I want to be together. I just feel really lonely sometimes. I mean, sure, we see each other often, quite often for two people who technically don't "live" in the same city, for the moment. But its never good enough. Maybe that sounds stupid, but I just like to know that if I needed to see him right then, at that very moment, I could, not have to wait for the next time he came here or I went down there. Of course, yes, it is worth it, but I just wish it didn't have to be like this. But it does, so I will have to deal with it. Its only 4 months until school is done, and 3 weeks in this month we will be together, and 1 week in February, for reading beak. So thats only 3 months more that we will be apart. So thats not bad, its already been 3 and a half, and that went by very quickly. Hopefully the next 4 go by quicker...