I was thinking of the freaking old question, what would I do
with a million dollars? I mean, isn't there something more awesome
to do with that money than just pay the bills and live off the
interest?

and then came the awesome idea. but first a flashback.

a couple years ago I went home to visit, and I met up with my
friend Steph. we got into a disagreement where I said you should
enjoy life at the moment. Steph said she would be happy later when
she's rich. it wasn't a big argument, but I remembered it even now
because I thought she was kind of a sad person if that's all she
had to look forward to. 

So back to my wonderings today. if I had a million dollars,
first I would take out 10% and pay it to the church, cuz that's not
my money (I'm taking a bible/money course and I've been thinking
about that stuff), and the other 90% I would hand over to Steph.
just send her a check. and I would include a letter: "Dear Steph:
maybe you're wondering what's the point of sending you a fake
million dollar check, but I'm telling you it's real. remember when
you said you'd be happy when you were rich? well I'm giving it to
you now. I won the lottery, and I wanted to do something different
with it than what everyone else would do. So I've decided to do a
little experiment. you said you'd be happy when you become a doctor
and get rich, but I'm making you rich right now. I want to see if
you become happy like I thought you would. 

If you don't believe the money is real, try and spend some. go
on a cruise or go to Africa or something. 

I don't feel like I'm wasting my money, so don't worry about
me. I just want to see what happens to you as you're spending all
that money. I don't have anything good to spend it on
anyway."

it would be totally awesome if after all that I was right
about money not being good enough to make you happy.

Sigh... I think I wrote this because I'm not going to win a
million dollars, so I just did the next best thing and documented
my thought. 

anyway back to studying. I need my brain tomorrow morning. the
test is in 5 hours now...

I wonder if this journal was better the first time I wrote
it...