carlowilmer@yahoo.com

Shits appeasing to the eyebut why do you keep comingback for more? All you do is cause more heart ache thatyou probably dont even realizebut what you do and how you do it and how you say iteffects me in every way physicaly mentally and emotionally. wheather you believe it or not im in love with you from the very starti knew it. i dont even know how to handle itbut every time you come aroundi quiver, i shiver, i stop and cant even maneuveri cry myself to sleepsometimes i cant even sleepi dream i wonder and i thinkit might be a little obsessive i know but i know for a factthat i can provide a better life than anyone for youbut i know that its not up to mewhat is is what you really wantbecause in the end your happinessis all that really matters.ughhh but its so hard to wanna break it offi dont even know where to begin,it seems like its all coming to an end before it even begani cant even imagine what i wanna tell you becausethere is so much that i want a lifetimewith I and Iselfish as it may seem i will earn it i will do everything in my power to please you to make you smile to make you happy to give you everything you want. why do you get ahold of me without ever knowingyou take advantage of me i notice and i care but i want you around so badill do whatever it takes.:

Lies, Lies, Lies Your lies have been uncovered I dont really care But the fact that you had to lie Makes me question your motives Have I not been truthful from the beginning Have I not done and gone beyond everything you asked of me Have I not taken care of you I hate the fact that you see everyone as your next high I hate the fact that you feel you have to lie I hate that you are constantly looking for a high I hate that you are always inebriated I hate this emotional toll you have on me I hate that your never yourself around me I hate that you are never there for me I hate that you lie to me I hate that you are ashamed of me But most of all what I hate is the fact that I dont hate you at all, Im not mad at you or the fact of, Im just disappointed that you made me a sucka when i asked you not too

Blind to what was in front of me I now can see the truth that got ahold of me Binding our two souls as one We walk as seperate entities With a power only we know As time progressed you took control of me Had my mind, Had my heart, Had my body,Babe, you got ahold of me Walked all over me Used me, Abused me, and Hung me up to dry I lay my head to my pillow and realize You put a false hope inside one that I could confide But in the end my heart died Slowly the feelings for you began to subside Poof, be gone, you are outta my mind.

Only in time will this play out but i suffer inside and out. My mind is a trembling wreck my heart is a bleeding beat i walk with my head down in shame for i cannot speak Sleep will never be the same as i lay with my eyes open facing the endless black ceiling that never smiles back, all i can see is those big bright white teeth that shine the light but as i reach it your lips close and there is no more. I am no more.

The thing that i did was not fully justified in my head, it was an inebriated thought that was pulsating in my brain. I layed there in bed with all these vivid images pouring into my head of what could happen but in the end, it didnt do any justice what so ever. If anything it created a void within this relationship of friendship that I once had. If this is fixable I will do my best to repair but if its not than I fully accept the reprecautions of my actions. However I do regret and wish I could turn back time to avoid this mistake from ever happening.