My life...as I know it.

Stopped by Lisa's tonight to drop her off some dinner as well as her Valentine's Day gift. I always feel bad when I leave Lisa's. I always feel guilty that I don't spend more time with her than I do. When I was over there tonight she was telling me about her new job at Pine Castle. I often realize when I spend time with her, just how much of the day-to-day details of her life that I miss out on. Lisa has dealt with so many challenges throughout her life. Yet she remains the most trusting and loving person I have ever known. As much as I admire that about her, I often worry that her trust of others will open her to being taken advantage of. Sometimes it's easy to feel sorry about myself regarding my health issues, work issues, or whatever else may come along. But then after I spend time with Lisa, I realize that my struggles aren't all that bad after all. She is definitely someone whom I will always admire. I hope one day she finds someone with whom she can share her love with. She deserves to one day experience the joy of romance and hopefully getting married. I REALLY hope she finds that someone special one day soon.

I hope one day to be the person she considers me to be. I really need to spend more time with her. I don't want to be in a situation one day, where I'm telling myself.."I wish I would have made more time to be a part of her life."