Please Don't Leave!
I gave you my heart so please dont brake it.
Prove to me your not going to hurt me.
Don't throw my heart on the ground.
If you do at least give it back to me,
Don't make it to were i have to cut my self for the pain to go away.
Dont leave me in pieces that i have to put togather.
Help me get over this pain, just grab me and kiss me to let me know i'm yours
Hold me at my lowest point so that i know not to let go of you when i feel like there is no more life in me.
Push me to go on in this miserable life that has no meaning to me.
prove to me that you love me with every word you say and every touch,
Teach me that there is more life then just death.
Let me know that when i put my hand out your going to grab it.
Also let me know that if i ever fell to the ground bleeding that you would be ther helping me.
Help sew my heart back to gather and dry these tears that are rolling down my cheek like blood in the body.
prove to me you need me more then i need a knife.
Listen to my phone calls when i'm crying.
Don't go to my front door and tell me you don't need me.

Please Don't Leave!
*saide*
10/1/07

The kiss

When our lips touch can you feel the magic between our lips.
When you touch me,
it's like you know what to do.
When our bodys touch i feel the power and heat like eletricity running thru our body,
like we were ment to be.
Every time i see you,
i can't wait to touch you or for our lips to fall in to place.
And after all this,
all i can think is luckey i am to have you in my life.

When it?s all over

All i think is when are the memories going to end,
when will this pain vanish.
when will i be a normal person, not feeling so much hate and lonelyness inside.
when it?s all over will i feel better?
if i decide to cut my wrist would i feel better inside,
knowing the pain in side is just covered up with the pain and blood running down my skin.
maybe if i just end my life i won?t worry bought my problems anymore.
when it?s over, will my pain lenger?
i donno, maybe i guess it?s time i find out.

when it?s all over will i feel it?
*saide*
10/1/07

Song Of Jack


my name is jack,
i do a bunch of crak,
that makes my back wack,
i live in a house,
my best friend is a mouse ,
his name is bob that ilives in a cob, who has a dog named rob
we have no job,
who?s friends with josh that say's OH MY GOSH?
who friends name is fred who sleeps in bed with greg.

OH SNAPS THATS PIMP.

How do u deal with the pain of not being able to see the one you love more then life, but yet everything in you tells you to just end the best thing in your life, but yet you don't want to let go, and you don't know how to.
How do you wipe the tears away when all u can do is just cry to help your self. whats happens when he's the only thing in life that you want, and matters.
why is it when something in your life make you feel so special, and all you can do is just sit there and not do nothing.
But all you want is just to run away or kill yourself.
If you can't have that one person you love. and you know u care bought him so much cause you cry non-stop for him just to hold you, or tell you everythings going to be ok. all i can say is that i need you and i want you baby. and i won't give up for us. and thats all i know.

i want you josh and no one else.
*saide*

How Did I?

How did i get you?
So perfect, no flaws.
You look in my eyes with no lies.
How do u do it?
You drive me crazy,
Wethers it's holding me or kissing me,
just touching drives crazy.
When it's just me i?m scared,
But with you i'm fearless.
When your gone,
Your what i miss,
And what i need is just a simple kiss.
I love you is what you say while we lay in bed,
I love you too.
How do you do it?
So perfect, and no flaws.
I wonder at night how did i get you,
How Did I?

Saide

I love you so much that nothing can change that.
i hate that i can't see you no more, just cause i had to see you, i feel like shit. man i need you but yet i can't have you. just cause i screw up once, babe i need you and nothing else. i wish you were here right not to hold me and tell me things are going to be ok, cause thats all i want.

It's You
Your the one I want,
the man I desire.
Even with my crushes and flings
and other little things.
There's no competition,
there's no fight to win,
it will always be you
I want in the end.


Forever
I've known you for only
a short period of time,
but I feel as if
I've known you forever.
I can't help but love you -
Love your lips against mine,
Soul to soul,
Heart to heart.
I can't help but want you,
Wanting you next to me,
Loving me,
Holding me.
With out you My life would feel so empty,
Then there you are when I am down,
Making my frowns into giggles,
And giggles into I Love You's.
My heart it beats for you,
Beating your name while I sleep.
My thoughts of you are all pure of heart,
From my soul.
I often think of you,
Then a silly tingling feeling
rushes through my body,
And I hope you are thinking of me.
I can't help but love you,
Love the way you love me,
And love the feelings we have.
Love you even when you are mad at me
Love you when it seems like no one else cares and I tremble with joy
at your every touch.
The feel of your hand taking mine -
I want you to hold it forever.
I glow with happiness
every time you're near.
I want you near me now,
I want to be with you forever.
My knees grow weak
in your loving arms.
I want to stay there,
I want you to hold me forever.
My body melts
with every kiss you give.
Just the thought of your lips on mine -
I want you to kiss me forever.-
I will love you forever

Done Trying
That one rope is brakeing,
I cant hold it anymore.
I'm sliping and no one can see that.
People all around me are sliping but not careing.
Why?
I'm Slowing giving up,
And dieing of so much pain and furstrashion.
I just cant hold in no more to that hopeing that things will change.
I'm done trying.
One person can only hold on for so long til they start geting sore,
To were they do not care no more to hold on.
Does that show we are weak if we fall?
I'm tired and to rest,
so you can move on and i'll stay here with my heart slowly dieing.
I'm on my own and I don't mind.
I'm Done Trying.

*Saide*
12/9/07