Razi's Journal

Ok there is not a whole lot to write. I am just trying to learn so many things at one time it is almost impossible to keep everything straight. Plus I am studying so that I can get done with my schooling early. I have piled up on so many things in my life it is unbelievable how hard it is to keep everything straight. 

There is so much that I have to do and I have so little time to do it all in. I really think that I am loosing my mind. There are times when I just want to sit down and cry and then there are other times when I just want to yell at someone and say "Look I am still here....Why can't you love me?" But that will never happen so I really do not know what I am crying about. 

I just have to go on with the new life that I have chosen for myself and forget about my parents as they must have forgotten about me. Other then the money that they send me each month and remind me to be a good girl for them and they will be home soon. They have been saying that since I was 14 and I am 22 now. I really do not think that they are ever coming home. I just wish I knew what I had done to make them not want me.

I don't remember doing anything wrong. But I must have done something, why else would they leave and never come back. I wish they would tell me so that I would know what to think.