Raven's Journal

I've been looking at the database tables to see if anyone is posting. Other than Luke and myself, none, zilch, zip... So start posting or else I'll... (::insert personal nightmare::).

They changed the dress code at work. It's a bit looser now. Joy to the world. We're going to fire you all so let's make your last few months tolerable by letting you wear jeans. I'd rather stay employed.

Work sucks. I'm really tired right now. :(

I'm in such a down mood today. Nothing else can describe how I feel. I feel like the world is laughing at my existence today.

A little calm wouldn't hurt my feelings.

I did apply for a job yesterday. I called a company in response to a wanted ad in the paper. They wanted me to drop off my resume in person. I spoke with the service manager for a few minutes. I don't think I was what he *expected*. I severely doubt I'll get a call back. LOL.

I have to laugh at idiots like that. He actually asked me if I had touched a computer before. Yes, I think somewhere in the process of being a network administrator, helpdesk tech and getting a BA in computer sciene, I used a computer (in my mind, I complete the sentence with "asshole").

My parents visited. Saw T3. Did some cleaning as well. I need to do much more cleaning when I get home today.

To do list:
1. Apply for a job.
2. Re-organize pantry.
3. Clean cat litter.
4. Cry myself to sleep. That's optional.

Yesterday went well. Luke and I hung out with a co-worker of mine and his wife. It was nice to be out. We went to Fourth Coast cafe. There's a restaurant on the top floor that looks interesting. They serve some veggie dishes. :-)

My parents are coming tomorrow. This means I must clean like there is no tomorrow after work. :-(

Well my boss is out of the office today. ::big grin::

We have friends pages now. I want to see posts!

You can now add and remove friends.

Lastest poll at work, should the school year be shortened and school days become longer?

My response no. The American school system needs a radical overhaul in regards to scheduling. We don't need year round school or longer days, though either could be a consequence of my suggestion. I think students should have flexible schedules. All school schedules should be more like college schedules, except the students would be taking more subjects. Even if the number of subjects didn't change (6 or 7 depending on the school you went to), create longer class periods and place classes on different days.

To take this idea further, in high school, the start and end times should vary. Would students skip? Yes, but let's take the college approach again. If in high school, you decide to skip and as a result flunk a class, it was your decision. It's your education. Now high school students would have to be there until they either graduated or dropped out. But are things any different now?

My mind wandered to a ex-webmaster who used to talk to Luke. I'll just call him T. T is a crazy, psycho cult member now (it's one of those little "Christian" groups who think other Christians groups don't count as Christian).

Luke just asked me to write a servelet, he always asks when I'm writing a journal entry or playing a game.

I should really add "back has decided to cause horrible pain" as a mood. I have access to the database, I could add it.

I really want to be home right now. I just want to curl up with the cats and relax.

Last night I fell asleep at 8 p.m. My stomach was bad last night and I wanted to just lay down for a minute, and the next thing I know my alarm is going off at 4 a.m. It was nice to have 8 full hours of sleep last night though. However Luke needed to give the cats dinner. That part sucked.

Pfizer finally told when the helpdesk is closing. It's a relief actually. I'm happy to know what's happening.

Help! Will explain more later. Stuck at work. Need entertainment.

It's kind of funny. Often i find myself placed in the opposite role of an earlier situation. One just ended a few minutes ago. I really am not going to go into it. But maybe the whole thing will help me. A few weeks ago I realized why I have difficultity in my interpersonal relationships. I have such fucking lofty goals for friends. Seriously I do. People aren't like that. In the process, I tend to attract people more fucked up than me as friends.

I know this former friend (4 weeks or more for me, probably 20 minutes from his end) had to send me a tell off e-mail. That's fine. It's therapy. I don't feel much in response. I don't even feel like replying.

At least everything is clear.

Henry just ate a small piece of wrapping paper. What a strange cat.

I need to clean the bedroom today and tomorrow. Long story. It's not going to be fun.

Luke added some features to justjournal. The sessions are working now.

Yesterday overall sucked. I really can't avoid that fact. Today I feel much better. Sometimes getting all of that negative energy out of my spirit makes everything better.

This morning I found out the people I interviewed with pushed their decision back. They originally said Wednesday, now it's the "end of the week." I really hate how much people can mess with you now when you apply for a job.

My dad stayed overnight at the hospital. My mom called and told Luke that my dad passed out last night. I guess he had some flu like symptoms yesterday. The doctors said he was dehydrated and his blood pressure was too low (there's a first for everything). My mom said he'll be ok but the doctors wanted him to stay overnight for observation.

I *love* sincere behavior. Ok, basically a current co-worker and I interviewed for two positions at the same helpdesk. I have tried to be professional about the whole thing.

Ok, we both agree the interviewers had an unique style. I felt I did the best I could and if I'm not what they're looking for whatever. That's the conclusion I arrived at over the weekend. My co-worker (I'll call him Urtkay) really wants this job. I can understand why completely. On the same hand, I don't think he should beat himself up over it either.

I've taken the opinion as of late that if I put effort into a job application (the entire process) and don't get the position, that's ok. At least I tried.

Yes, getting the job would solve a problem. I won't pretend otherwise, but honestly I still haven't gotten a feeling off that interview. I didn't wake up the next day with a strong feeling that it went well or went poorly. Overall it feels like "it just went."

Just testing the new code.

Try to follow this logic here.

1. We know that our unit is going away. We will all be laid off if we stay. However since we are contractors, we will not be given any advance notice of when we will be laid off.

2. Yet, if we find other employment we are supposed to give Pfizer two weeks notice.

The job I interviewed for yesterday needs two people there the middle of next week. Before the interview, I discussed this with my supervisor. I explained that if I am offered the job, I would be unable to give 2 weeks notice. My supervisor was very understanding and told me, I'd have to do what I needed to. She went further and said that she appreciated the fact I told her there was even a possibility I would have to leave soon.

This morning, Jerry tries to tell us that there are situations we have to give under 2 weeks notice, but we should try to avoid doing this.

That's great and all, but would I get two weeks notice from Jerry?