If You Don't Like What I Have To Say, Don't Freaking Read This

1. Lack of reviews but plenty of hits: This kind of thing could lead a author to think that their story is not being read or taken seriously. We sometimes need acknowledgement for us bringing our 'fantasies' to you. We don't do it just to please ourselves, but to please others as well and it does take time, practice and effort to write a good story so people other than ourselves can enjoy it. Receiving no feedback makes all that effor appear to be in vain.

2. Critique from non-writers or just plain 'shit-writers': I've had novices going off on me for not updating or for writing something they didn't like in a fic. Face it, what really counts in a fanfic is: IC, good plot, grammar, and writing style. NOT the pairing choice, or the chain of events transcuring. In the end, the WRITER decides, so criticizing someone for choosing a pairing you don't like or making something like a natural disaster or car accident occur happen in the fic, makes you look like a whiny little bitch that doesn't understand this concept and FACT. As for writer's block, we get them all the time and its not because we want to. If we start a new fic in order to refresh ourselves and not forget how to deliver a good story in spite of feeling dry on another pairing or plot, flaming the writer, will just get you reported and flamed right back because it just proves how ignorant you are when it comes to writing a long-term fic.

3. Complaining about sex in a 'smut-plot' specially when the fic is rated-M: Sweetiepie, not EVERYBODY thinks like you. There's few virgins, sex-hating prudes out there but when a fic is rated M, has 'sexual content' on a summary and its said in the A/N that its a 'smut-plot' complaining about a 'clean fic' makes you sound like a clit-less clueless wonder. I've even gotten shit like this on adultsites, which is funny considering that these sites are full of PWP and my fics at least have plotlines and backstories to them.

4. Grammar Nazi's who obviously can't spell worth a shit: A couple of years back I had some brat telling me how to use proper grammar and when I checked her profile all she had was ONE drabble that had a ton of mispellings. Jealous much?

5. Flammers: If it isn't a constructive criticism, these assholes could just go eat shit and fuck themselves up the ass with a spiked metal bat for all I care. Most of the time they're just jealous at all the attention a fic is getting (oftentimes other writers giving flaming reviews incognito. It's happened to me before.) or just need to go off on somebody. I've been flamed for stupid shit before, sometimes shit that didn't even have anything to do with my fic (leading me to think that the flamer didn't really read it and just 'popped' in to flame something randomnly) or they said something that just had them look downright retarded.

Do us ALL a favor and go kill yourselves. We don't give a shit that your life is worthless, so don't waste the space for actual valuable readers/friends/reviewers by writing petty bullshit that speaks of how uncreative and pathetic you are.

I honestly hate dealing with lazy people that are either too inept or just don't feel like doing their motherfucking jobs! TWO doctors appointment for my daughter have been canceled at the last minute because these ASSHOLES prefer having 'emergency vacations'. That's why the medical system is often criticized in the shitty little island I call home (to tell you the truth I don't know why they fucking call this the 'The Island of Enchantment', when everything here is just shit and before anyone goes off on me and calls me racist... I AM PUERTO RICAN MYSELF!)

My daughter's dentist appointment last week (on friday) cancelled at the last minute after I waited for a freaking hour in a half since six o'clock in the morning. Did they call to say they'd cancelled? N FUCKING O! NO!

Today my daughter was supposed to have some tests run on her at SEVEN IN THE MORNING! Do you know how hard it is to wake up a four year old at five o'clock so she could eat breakfast, get dressed and hit the street before 'summer school' traffic clogs up every roadway? FUCKING NURSES DON'T!

The stupid receptionist said that the nurse that ran the tests was sick, but I know the truth. With that 'beach bunny' look the old lady had and the way she talked about wanting to go to Isla Verde (a beach town) when she was in the middle of writing my daughter's appointment last week... Yeah. She's really sick alright.

If these mother-fucking bastards don't want to work (government medical system), they should go elsewhere other than wasting our time so needlessly, because as far as I know the money I pay in sale's tax and all of the fucking income taxes bled out of my paychecks and even light and water bills, pays THEIR saleries.

Bunch of cocksuckers.

I can't believe some of the shit that happens to me and this shitty assed computer! Just two days ago, a virus ate up my wordpad files (stuff that had EVERYTHING to do with my fanfics) and messed around with my internet connection... This means that I have to rewrite shit.

I'm so mad I could kill someone. Especially the motherfuckers that create viruses for shit and giggles!

Believe it or not, I do take requests for any pairing or situation. I'm not a picky person that sticks with only one person. I usually do them as oneshots, but if the story is especially complex I make it into a longfic. I do always strive to finish long fics even if it takes me years, but I don't have a very stable upload schedule and sometimes updates for long fics could take months or just a couple of days depending on my time. Now I'm just throwing out requests and old notebook stuffs I had in my closet (all oneshots) before returning to my long fics that I will very happily update even if it pisses some immature crybabies off. Love or hate my stories, I don't worship anybody in specific. I do love reading fanfiction and do have some favorite characters but I don't make FCs or start boards to bash another character. It's not within me and its downright stupid to get so riled up over something fictional. My fave characters so far and pairings I do seem to like (not to the point of obessessive fanworship that makes me stuck writing only for them) are:

Bleach: Ichigo/Rukia, Ichigo/Orihime, Ulquiorra/Orihime, Byakuya/Ichigo, Hitsu/Rangi, Gin/Rangi, Hichigo/Orihime, Byakuya/Rukia, Kenpachi/Soi Fon, Ulquiorra/Ichigo, Nel/Ichigo, Rukia/Orihime, Grimmjow/Orihime, Grimmjow/Rukia

OHSHC: Kyoya/Tamaki, Hitachiincest, Haru/Mori, Hunny/Haru, Hunny/Mori, Renge/Tamaki

Inuyasha: Inu/Sessh, Inu/Kag, Inu/Sango, Sessh/Sango, Inu/Kik, Miro/Kag

The Wallflower: Ran/Take, Ran/Suna, Kyo/Suna,

Blood : Karl/Saya, Salomon/Haji

Trinity Blood: Cain/Abel (I'll admit to HATING Esther so anything with her is a NO GO with me)

So if you have a request for ANYBODY doing ANYTHING tell me and I'll see what I can do, but... Don't stupidly try to make me think the same way you do. I'm too freaking old to put up with little girls that can't take a hint that I just don't give a shit if their character is getting hurt because of a plot. I've already had two or three random bitches (maybe all the same one) telling me how immature I am to not build altars to fictional supposedly cannon pairings. I just don't care. I don't bash anybody outright (don't request for me to do that) because though I don't favor a pairing, I don't hate any either. And if my thoughts are immature to anybody reading this, then you're a dumb piece of shit that needs to grow up and learn how to wipe your own ass.

Sorry towards anybody offended by that. I hate it when psychotic brats try to tell me what to do. Also if you want me to review a fic, pm me or review me. I love to review! (I don't flame people. I leave those to the people that get the shit beat of them every day because they're losers in real life. C'mon! You guys know I'm so right!)

It's awful... The amount of money you have to spend on every fucking thing these people ask for your kids! I feel like killing someone already! Every week I'm being given a list A LIST of shit I have to buy for my daughter and the fucking school. Today, I got yet another list and I kinda' went off on the teacher for this shit because not only am I supposed to buy all of this goddamned crap, but I have to do volunteer work along with everybody else or our kids won't be able to attend the program. By the way... volunteer work is just a title. That shit is OBLIGATORY! Today, there was a fieldtrip and since these cheap asses won't bring lunch for the kids, we have to make their lunches and pay for the gas.... This is a fucking private institution we're talking about!

Anyways, since I'm in a rant let me start by saying that other than the bullshitfest that its my life, parents hate school as much as kids do. I haven't spent so much money in my nearly thirty years of life. If someone told me that I would spend less money on Luna after she started the school, that motherfucker deserves to be shot for being such a liar!

Another thing that is pissing me off are the 'lurkers'. I have over 28 faves for that freaking Ichi/Ruki shit I wrote and only four reviews for it so I guess all fucking fans of that pairing are a bunch of pansies like that worthless illiterate flamer! I ain't doing a fucking longfic on them because of that shit.

But... I'll admit that the Ulqui/Hime pairing intrigues me. People always bitch at me about choosing a pairing and to tell the truth my favorite females are Orihime and Tatsuki. I don't like Rukia all that much (sorry. Just not that into her. Personality and lookswise, I'm a freaky Ori/Tat hybrid, so I guess I can relate to those two more than other females.) In fact that pairing has interested me so much that thanks to a wonderful reviewer (SomeoneWhoLikesBleach also know as Clarissa. She's a nice girl) I've taken a request for them. So far at least 3 fourths of that story is finished. It's a loooooong oneshot with an open ending and I've enjoyed writing for those two immensely. Ulquiorra is a very rare male character and if people think pairing him up with Hime is weird, these people don't know how EASY it is to write the both of them. They feel even cannon! (though we know that's unfortunately not true, folks)

Onto real life shit... Things are peachy. Other than being broke, still recovering from the hell of all colds (I'm asthmatic so a cold is lethal to someone like me), I'm... happy! I'm weird and fun like that, I suppose.

If it weren't for life being such a pain in the ass, I'd be feeling dead.

I'm still kinda mad about it though.

Why do I say this...? Because I'm sick and tired of people thinking I ship them going off on me. I don't hate or like this pairing, but people like trying to force me to like them. I've just recently got a PM from some delusional little girl that read my Ichi/Ruki drabble saying that she wouldn't review it until I remove the excerpt of Reflection that is supposedly anti-Ichi/Ruki.  This is my reply to her bullshit.

I write whatever I feel like. I like characters, NOT pairings. I don't ship anyone. Here are the characters I like... Ichigo, Tatsuki, Orihime, Tia Harribel, Ulquiorra, Rangiku, Isshin, Ryuken, Karin, Yuzu, Hichigo, Toshiro, Ukitake, Hikakku, Renji, Yoruichi, Urahara, Aizen... Do you see Rukia anywhere in there? No. I like her, but not enough to the point to concentrate all of my fiction on her or harass other authors that aren't crazy about her.

So I WILL not write any more stories on these two. Don't expect me to. That drabble is going to stay that way until the fucking fans of this pairing grow the fuck up and quit bugging people with the whole 'Ichi/Ruki is cannon and everyone that doesn't like them should die!' nonsense. Not everyone has to think the way you do and it pisses me off when people asume that I am another one of the crazy bashing fans into this pairing because of a fucking drabble. Yes, Ichi/Ruki is cute. I would LOVE to write them, but the FANS saying stupid nonsense like this make me almost hate this 'couple'.

If I ever write anything with Rukia in a pairing, she'd either be paired up with Byakuya, Ryuken or some other random male rather than Ichigo because quite frankly I don't want people to stereotype my paring choices into an overused category.

Sorry to anyone offended by this. I used to have Ichi/Ruki in my fanfic poll, but after this I DELETED it. I am not in the mood to have people telling me how much they hate Orihime and asking me to hurt all characters hurting Ichi/Ruki. I am not in the mood for any of this infantile SHIT.

Yesterday, after I had cooled off and settled in for the night, my grandpa decided to bring his new girlfriend and her daughter over to introduce them to me. I had no problem with it because I'm like a night owl anyway... Everything was fine and dandy until this little whore (I knew who she was by looking at her) told me in a bossy tone , "Hey, bitch, get me a soda."

I blinked. This BITCH was in my motherfucking house, telling me what to fucking do like she knew me.

She got the Bitch Treatment (I can be twice as mean).

"If you wanted a fucking soda, you should've asked the last guy you humped between your legs to pay you for being such a whore."

"..."

Yeah. I was mean because I KNOW who this bitch is. Her name is Daisy, she's 17 years old, pregnant and claims to know who the father of her baby is when in fact she had fucked about every guy in the project complex called Jimenez (next to Huertas Junior College where I used to go). I wasn't about to allow this cheap community skank-hole, talk down to me in my own house.

My grandpa of course freaked, but since he knows how I can't stand having people telling me what to do in my turf, he backed off (mostly after I told him what a home-wrecking whore this Daisy is. That girl has slept with even MARRIED men. Some of those men were around the same age as my grandfather! SICK!)

What is it with teenagers now days? Do they purposely think that cursing at an adult will get them to do shit for them? I mean, I shut her up and made her tear up a little bit after I said that, but GEEZ! No little girl is going to talk to me like that. She's lucky she's under eighteen and pregnant, because if it hadn't been for that, I would have kicked her fat pimply hoe ass out of my house.

So far in the psychological field, (I'm going profesional, though I can't stand most people), I've noticed that most personality problems people have developed started in their preteen years. Why the preteen years? Well, usually in the gradeschool years, most kids grow out of bad habits and develop newer ones. A new school, a different crowd that may have older people, new experiences... The ages between 11 and 13 are VERY crucial in the character development of a full teenager. Whatever bad habits you may see in a child during those years, will be enhanced and far WORSE once they reach high school.

Most of my friends that were boycrazy in their preteen years, and thinking about kissing and seeing boy thingies ended up pregnant or raped by the time they were sixteen... Because these curiousities became worse. If you see a generally shy preteen girl, you will probably not see her screwing up as her pop-culture obssessed peers. The most important thing to do when you see your kids behaving and saying stupid things in these years is to talk to them and put a stop to it before they reach high school. I already have a cousin that displayed these 'symptoms' at age 12 (before that she used to be really sweet actually) and when I told my Uncle about it, he laughed it off and said it was nothing.

Guess what. That 'nothing' is now pregnant at age 15 because he didn't tell her to quit acting like a nutcase before it was too late. At age 11, they might start posting up posters of guys in various states of undress in their walls and talking about boyfriends and french-kissing, at age 12 they start talking about jerking dicks off and giving head, at 13, they're already using the cameras on their cell phones to take naked pictures of each other to send to strangers.

Pregnant at 15 years old, people and these were the 'early' stages that her father thought were regular girl things. Seeing my cousin Monica at age 5 (the same girl), so sweet and shy about talking to people, you wouldn't have expected her to become such a whore... The 'change' started appearing in her preteen years. You can tell exactly what kind of problem teenager you'll have judging by these years alone. As younger kids, you can manage them if you have a firm authority that doesn't overcrowd them in their own growth, as preteens they start getting ideas on how to keep you from knowing all of their dirty little secrets.

So yeah. WATCH THEM! They can explore their sexuality, but not in such an out of control manner. Even my own mother told me how to take care of myself for sex before I even had my first period (she explained it all to me at age 8. It was traumatizing, but at least when I got my first boyfriend I wasn't an idiot that could be sweet-talked into screwing up). Just because it embarasses you doesn't mean your kid doesn't have to know about it. SHEESH! If parents were a little more open about talking about this stuff, their kids wouldn't end up so fucked up.

But then again... That's just me talking.

I am a person that draws in bad luck in real life. I swear I know some of the shittiest people in the universe. Okay... Since I won't give names, let me just say that someone close to me ALWAYS likes to tell me her problems. I mean, ALWAYS. Usually she goes on and on, depressing ME in the process...

What happens when I try to converse with her about MY problems...?

"Oh, Miriam... You're depressing me. Can we change the subject because your negative energy is making me feel bad."

The last time I talked with this person over the phone she was crying over how unfair her life was and I told her, "You're depressing me. Get over it. You're not the only one in this world with problems and its time for you to get used to it."

Now... This person sent me an EMAIL telling me how upset she was and trying to indirectly call me 'selfish' and 'cruel' for telling her off in one of her many times of need.

What. The. Fuck?

Hypocrite much?

I haven't written her back because I'm still pissed with her for her own SELFISHNESS. I'm a single mother with bills. I have way too much shit to do to be dragged down by someone else's motherfucking melodrama. Call me a bitch, but I do try to support everyone and be nice about it. However there's some people that get really fucking greedy and start abusing that kindness without having an ounce of consideration towards other people. I find that to be extremely unfair and since I'm someone that doesn't put up with much bullshit I told this person how it was and gave her pretty much the same treatment she gives me whenever I try to let loose.

She isn't the first person that I've told off like this.

Syren (yes, believe it or not, that's her real name) used to go around sleeping with guys every fucking night. I mean... She'd be talking with them one minute and the next she would be in the backroom fucking them. She said that she didn't know what was wrong with her (being a dumbass looking for affection she didn't have as a child that REFUSED psychological attention even after I, someone in the field, told her that she needed to get those issues resolved before it was too late) and kept doing it.

One night she slept with a married guy while I was outside talking with my ex-hubby's cousin Melisa. Unfortunately, some CRAZY bitch shows up looking for the guy, waltzed right into my house, beat the shit out of both of them and in the end... Do you know what the crazy wife of the guy said while laughing like a maniac?

"Why do I EVEN bother hitting the both of you?! I've just got back from the doctor and he told me I've got AIDS!"

((BOOOOOOM!)) >>>> See? I even added sound effects! ;D

Syren got checked a couple of months back and told me crying that she did indeed get AIDS for that worthless bootycall. (even though she's a slut, Syren is pretty and that ugly dirty old man she got that shit from was totally not worth the beatdown much less the AIDS.)

That stupid little skankhole! My advice totally went out the fucking window! I don't talk to her anymore after she tried to mess around with one of my guy friends while already knowing she HAS AIDS. That insane cunt is willing to spread that shit knowing she has it!

That's why some people should be thrown into an uncharted island full of cannibals. Or at least get sent to a giant blender, turned to mush and get the BULLSHIT juice squeezed out of them to give over to the aliens for their studies.

It'll be a 'sacrifice' for a good cause.

We just can't afford to lose any more cows.

Miriam (Mirrors)

Arrest made in rape, murder of 7-year-old girl

If you read that you'll know that I'm very sympathetic with the death penalty and 'your reap what you sow', SO I think that the suitable punishment for this horrid piece of shit that is still unfortunately alive and still breathing OUR oxygen is:

To get butt-raped with a rusty tire-iron or spiked bat until his ass and insides are turned to mush for being such a twisted fuck doing such a sick thing to an innocent young girl. I mean, beating, raping and stabbing a little girl to then throw her in a dumpster? Do we have to be fucking humane with these criminals?! FUCK HUMANITY WHEN THEY'RE INHUMANE WITH THE REST OF US!

All of these sick pedophiles ruin the lives not only of the children but of the families of the children they've abused and murdered. No sane adult would drag an innocent child into their depraved fantasies and in my view, that makes them too dysfunctional for general society.

These people deserve to fucking DIE and to have the SAME THING DONE TO THEM. And I'm not saying this because the girl is Puerto Rican like me because I've been seeing some heated debates about that. This shit shouldn't be DONE TO ANY CHILD.

It's bad enough when its done to an adult but to someone innocent and blameless like a child? No, this bastard should suffer. In fact, I think death is too good for the likes of him. He deserves years of suffering, daily rapes, humiliation for what he did to this girl.

I have a daughter of my own and... OH GOD FORBID! This shit just pisses me off so badly that I can't even think straight. It reminds me of the case of an escaped convict that raped and BEHEADED a fifteen year old girl that was alone in her house and then proceeded to STEAL everything in the house while the corpse laid on the floor.

It took YEARS for the guy to get caught and when he did, it was the FATHER of the girl that caught him, tied him to a tree and castrated him. The father of course didn't get charged for the mutilation because FINALLY the COPS WERE SMART IN AGREEING WITH HIM.

I think they should leave the family alone with this guy so they can personally punish him. If there were such a law that allowed this, then I doubt that rapists would continue to do so much harm.

HAHA! Made you look didn't I? I know... That was mighty evil of me, but I am indeed mad and need to let out some steam.

WARNINGS: This will have a very squirrely temper tantrum. Tons of cursing and disturbing demonic beastial homosexual imagery. Don't read if sensitive.

This neighbor of mine... Oh good GAWD, do I want to kill this motherfucker or what! Finally after so many terrible months of having to wake up at 5a.m. in the morning to go to school, take my kid to her own school and deal daily with stupid people with issues over the studidest things (some moron beat up his wife for forgetting to put a napkin around his beer can... Why do I always get the buttfucking crazy bastards?) this brainless inbred fuckass has to piss me off some more.

Do you know what it's like to go to sleep with a smile on your face because you don't have to do shit the next day only to have 'Mr. White-trash from trailer park' doing mechanical work at 3am in the fucking morning?! (I'm so happy I saw his stupid ass chicken getting mawled in my front porch by a rabid dog)

I just kept hearing a bunch of hammering and metal falling heavily on concrete. I tried to stay cool about it and ignored it... Until the sonovabitch turned the radio on full blast.

Let me just start by saying that this worthless fuckhole has an 'open garage'. It means there's no doors or walls to the thing. Just four columns with a roof and I happen to live next to him while he's singing along with his bullshit mountain music and hammering the shit out of the bowels of his already thoroughly caput junked ass truck at 3 o-fucking-CLOCK in the morning.

Okay... I get pissed. FINALLY! I've had enough of his nonsense!

So I start making some music of my own. I felt really wonderful doing this by the way...

I grabbed a huge pot and a metal spoon and started drumming as loudly and off-tune as I could while singing some really horrible racist song I'd made up in my crazy little noggin' at the last minute.

"Mista' trassssh collector singin' at 3 am thinks he's protected when one day we're gonna' chop his stupid head off and shove it up his cracka' ass so he'd quit pissin' us off!"

"And his cock-suckin' chickens will die wit' him fo' sho'!"

"Mindy's dead because ya' are a jerkyass mutha-fucka' that likes chicken vajayjay! And Satan will enjoy poudin' yer' shithole in hell!"

(yes. I was laughing like a maniac while I did this. I mean... Who wouldn't LAUGH singing that?! And before I forget, Mindy is the name of his dead chicken. I'M NOT KIDDING! The chicken that got killed at my house was named MINDY!)

He quit his hillbilly crap and guess what he did next...

He CALLED THE COPS ON ME FOR THREATENING TO KILL HIM!

Eventually the cops understood where I was coming from and they told him that it was considered to be disturbing the peace to be doing what he was doing so late at night and that also, make-shift mechanical garages is prohibited due to the neighborhood disturbance factor.

He threatened to sue me, but I got my lawyer to chill him out.

One of my neighbors is already starting a petition to get this guy out of our neighborhood. He's gotta' be the most inconsiderate, ignorant, and loud asshole to ever set foot in the quiet little hood of Villa Sauri.

I honestly wanted to kill him! Ever since he had moved in and that bitch of an oldfart girlfriend of his started honking horns at 5 in the morning to take him to work, ever since his bitchass chickens started to shit around my house and ever since he threw a temper tantrum because one of his said chickens (Mindy) got torn to shreds by a stray dog in MY porch while I did nothing, I've wanted to murder him! (what did he expect me to fucking do? Get myself killed with that big ass dog for a chicken that all she'd ever done for me 'pog!' under my windowsill every fucking hour and CRAPPED all over my place?!)

No, I'm going to sue HIM.

I know I behave unusually immature for my age and I don't give a fuck. In fact, I am laughing about this shit right now because I have a tendency to look back at the dumb stuff I do to just laugh at it and think: WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME?!

Yes... Things like this make life more entertaining. The wonders never cease. *sighs*

PS: Why the hell are there so many medical companies using justjournal as their websites? Everytime you see the entry blog there's a bunch of shit talking about boob implants and alzeimers (sp?). What the fuck is up with that shit? That's advertising, not journaling! It's... Does anybody even use justjournal for journaling anymore?

Also... I hate hamsters! I've just gotten bit by one! AHHHH!

Lately I've been going to little get-togethers with friends and family because they nag me so much about me not wanting to socialize with them (who could blame me?) and I feel like crap. I'm tired and sleepy all the time and lets not forget that I've gained like 6 pounds ever since I've started this little family bonding bullshit.

I was invited to yet another party for this Wednesday. 'Trullas' is what its gonna be. It's supposed to be a group of people going house to house singing and playing instruments and whatever... I said NO, because I was already beyond tired of this whole nonsense and my bitch of a cousin just had to call me anti-social and say some snide remarks about it. I eventually got fed up and told her to quit being so fucking vaginal on the subject because it was MY FUCKING CAR, she wanted to be chauffered in.

She could get her own motherfucking ride for being such a mouthy bitch from now on. She has a fucking boyfriend, maybe she could suck him off to get him actually interested in carting her useless whiny ass around town. (I really hate that bitch, even though she's actually blood related. She's just one of those people you love to make feel like crap for being such human waste.)

Haven't heard from my mother in ages because now she's got another deadbeat man in her life. Honestly, how many times can someone fuck up? I told her that if she didn't know how to pick a man with a fucking job and no addictions then she should fucking stay single and not bother. Last time I talked to her she said that she was coming to the island with her new man (a guy she's been fucking on and off for about 2 months. She's already thinking of moving in with him... Well him moving in with HER, because the bastard doesn't have a job OR a house), and I told her that if she wanted to do that, she should prepare herself to have everyone in our family calling her a dumbass for fucking up for the upteenth time. My aunt and grandpa are actually quite pissed with her behavior and have already told told her off.

She's fucking 49 years old. Has had 2 failed marrieges and about 6 failed boyfriends AFTER getting divorced. She's the kind of woman that gives EVERYTHING to her man (mostly money) and then whines about it when they dump her ass and leave her dirt broke.

I'm 28 years old and even I know that she's being increadibly stupid. I'm sick of having to play mother to my own mother. I've got a four year old little angel to raise and I can't take on the challenge of guiding an ADULT that can't for the life of her, take care of herself.

That stuff is just... It's very FRUSTRATING!

Why do I even stress over such crap? I guess I enjoy forcing myself to see how others keep screwing up their lives while dragging me down with them, because she indeed has TRIED to depress me with her issues. I know that she only tells me about her mistakes because she's seeking pity and for someone to tell her 'Everything is going to be okay. It's isn't your fault." but I've gotten so tired of her melodrama that I've told her to fuck off and that it IS her fault these things keep happening to her.

If I'm a horrible daughter, then what kind of mother is she? This is the person that was supposed to set a good example of what I should be as an adult and as a parent and all she has been is a complete let-down. It's rather shameful. At least my kid, always shows respect for me because she knows that I'm 100% there for her. Even her little friends respect me, whereas with my mother... The parents of my friends while I was growing up didn't want their kids near me due to her bad reputation and how badly she treated me because I was just bugging her 'man'.

Should I be a 'good person' and turn the other cheek? I don't think so... I've never been submissive to anyone and I'm not about to start lowering myself by starting now. She needs to quit depending on other people to get her out of trouble and to help her feel better. People always become so scandalized when hearing shit like this, but these morons don't know what it fucking feels like to experience this which means... Shut the fuck up if you don't know what the hell you're talking about. I'm sick of people (dumbasses that believe in 'family' and 'through thick and thin' bullshit that haven't seen my mother's dark selfish side) telling me that I have to support her pathetic ass inspite of all the suffering she's put me through and all the NEW mistakes she keeps making that affect me. I have a family to take care off and I'm not about to put them at risk because of the fallacies of one very STUPID IMBECILIC INDIVIDUAL.

She needs to make HERSELF feel better by acting her own fucking age for once.

I won't tolerate such shit. What a freaking disappointment.

Now I'm going to eat a sandwich, take some Motrin and go to sleep...

Miriam

How many fucking times will I have to tell these shitheads to quit calling my motherfucking house offering credit cards? Whenever I go off they hang up on me and call me another day after I've supposedly 'calmed down'.

Well that's SHIT! I don't want a fucking credit card, I've ALWAYS said I don't want a freaking card and will ALWAYS say I don't want one. How many fucking times will I have to tell these people to leave me the hell alone?!

THREE calls in a row from American Express offering me deals... What is it? Do they think that switching operators will convince me or something? I don't give a flying sack of shit how many different people talk to me about coverage and loans and whatever, I just don't want a CREDIT CARD!

Now I'm going to call my phone company to get my fucking number off the phonebook and I heard of a nifty little contract that makes computer dialups obselete and ILLEGAL for those that pay another extra ten bucks... So if they still continue having my number after I apply this shit, I will sue their stupid asses.