Serendipity...

All of life is a journey which paths we take, what we look back on, and what we look forward to is up to us. We determine our destination, what kind of road we will take to get there, and how happy we are when we get there.

i'm not quite sure how to breathe
without you here
i'm not quite sure if I'm ready to say goodbye
to all we were

be with me
stay with me
just for now
let the time decide when i won't need you

my hand searches for your hand
in a dark room
i can't find you
help me
are you looking for me

can i feel any more
lie to me, i'm fading
i can't drop you
tell me i don't need you

my hand searches for your hand
in a dark room
i can't find you
help me
are you looking for me

etch this into my brain for me
tell me how its supposed to be
where everything will go
and how i'll be without you by my side

my hand searches for your hand
in a dark room
i can't find you
help me
are you looking for me

my hand searches for your hand
in a dark room
i can't find you
help me
are you looking for me

When the whites of your eyes come through
You'll see something new
With your body and mine raised up
It's good to see you back home
When the life in your eyes wants black
Things return
You've come back
With your body and mine raised up
It's good to see you once more
Turn black tables
And your turning black tables
And your making your head blur
Making your head blur
And your turning black tables
And your turning black tables
And your making your head blur
Making your head blur

Beauty over wisdom to fit in with their styles
Your Cinderella story's for a price
Vanity's a business built to please the unique
Silicone and stars collide, the rest will fall in line
Just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
You should have seen this coming all along
Visually you're stimulating to my eyes
Your Cinderella syndrome's full of lies
Your insecurities are concealed by your pride
Pretty soon your ego will kill what's left inside
Just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
You should have seen this coming all along
It's so pitiful what you are
As beautiful as you are
You should have seen this coming all along
You're everything that's so typical
Maybe you're alone for a reason
You're the reason
It's so pitiful what you are
You should have seen this coming all along
Just as beautiful as you are
It's so pitiful what you are
You should have seen this coming all along
It's so pitiful what you are
As beautiful as you are
You should have seen this coming all along

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

When the thorn bush turns white thats when I'll come home,
I am going out to see what i can sow,
And i don't know where I'll go,
But i don't know what I'll see,
But I'll try not to bring it back home with me.
Like the morning sun your eyes will follow me,
As you watch me wander, curse the power that be,
'Cos all i want is here and now,
But its already been and gone,
Our attentions always last that bit too long.
Ooh ooh,
Far far away, no voices sounding, no one around me, and you're still there.
Far far away,no choices passing, no time confounding, and you're still there.
In the Full moon's light i listen to the stream,
And in between the sounds i still hear you calling me,
But i don't know where i am,
And i don't trust who I've been,
And If i come home how will i ever leave?
Ooh, ooh

I’ll seek you out,
Flay you alive
One more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour
I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain
I’m taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace
I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain
Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze
And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace

Lie in this empty bed
With this aching head
You left me here this morning
Now I can't remember why
I let you in again
To get under my skin
And every time you disappear
I remember
How I look for you
But I can't see your face
And then I hear you
The only thing you say...
I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid
Now there's no place like home
To make me feel alone
I see you everywhere I am
And I remember how you ran out to hide
You kept me close behind
Following your every move so I remember
I look for you
But I can't see your face
And then I hear you
The only thing you say...
I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid
I look for you
But I can't see your face
Then I hear you
The only thing you say is
Don't look for me
Cause you will never say
You won't hear me
You won't hear me
Why do we keep this up?
Why do we live like us?
When there is nothing left to save
Will you be afraid?
I am afraid right now
You already let me down
You are the one who can't be saved
If only I could say
I am afraid right now
You never will get out
You'll never let yourself be saved
You are so afraid
You are so afraid

Sick of circling the same road
Sick of bearing the guilt
So open the windows to cool off
And heat pours in instead
Perfect in weakness
I'm only perfect in just your strength alone
All my efforts to clean me
Leave me putrid and filthy
And how can you look at me
When I can't stand myself
I'm tired to be honest
I'm nobody
Perfect in weakness
I'm only perfect in just your strength alone
Perfect in weakness
I'm only running in just your strength alone
I tried to kill you
You tried to save me
You save me
You save me
You save me
You save me
Perfect in weakness
I'm only perfect in just your strength alone
Perfect in weakness
I'm only running in just your strength alone

Can you hear my heart beat in this bond
Do you know that behind of this bond
Lies the deep desire I'm in love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may
All my dreams to be all I can do
Only I love, only love
And you say I knew we should find a new way
Make a wonderful love if I may
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Do you know that behind of this hurt
Lies the deep desire I'm in love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may
All my dreams to be all I can do
Only I love, only love
And you say I knew we should find a new way
Make a wonderful love if I may
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Do you know that behind of this hurt
Lies the deep desire can you love hey
Make a wonderful love if I may
Make a wonderful love if I may
Make a wonderful love if I may
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt
Can you hear my heart beat in this hurt

Wait it out till the light
Take a breathe, say good night
But don't ever go away
Wait around to find the time
Only you can take what's mine
But don't ever go away
I'll be waiting... I need to let it go
Fade it out into the light
All these years we never get it right
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
No more reasons to defy
That I believed that you were mine
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
A chance to change or stay the same
One night with out the blame
That don't ever go away
Only you can make it right
To walk away with out a fight
But don't ever go away
I'll be waiting... I need to let it go
Fade it out into the light
All these years we never get it right
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
No more reasons to defy
That I believed that you were mine
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I need to let it go
I wish you'd let me go...

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Can I ask you a question please
Promise you won't laugh at me
Honestly I'm standing here
Afraid I'll be betrayed.
As twisted as it seems, I only fear love when it's in my dreams
So let in the morning light and let the darkness fade away
Can you turn my black roses red?
Can you turn my black roses red?
Drowning in my loneliness
How long must I hold my breath
So much emptiness inside I could fill the deepest sea
I reach to the sky as the moon looks on
One last year has come and gonne
It's time to let your love rain down on me
Can you turn my black roses red?
Cuz
I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love
Can you turn my black roses red?
Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame in on love
I'm feeling like I'll blame it on love (until fades)

Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for the 20 years.
I love trying to make conversation
when I could careless of what you're doing,
what are you doing? And I know you never cared 'till now.
All my days go back to when you would scream.
And it froze me.
Guess the screaming runs in the family.
You look tired and run-down.
Are you even excited to see your baby boy?
Put a razor to the skin 'till we don't resemble each other anymore.
Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for the 20 years.
So now I see the tears welling up,
finally you care I've waited all my life for this.
It's always been over, it's always been over, it's always been over for us.
A single tear, a last resort for all who've never felt.
Sit across from you, why are we even here?
There is no way to make up for these 20 years.
If I could flip this table I'd stab you with every word
that lied its way out of your head.

So here we are again
I see fork in the road
I hate you, you love me
this stories getting old
the day that I opened up
you shut me out for good
forgive! forget!
fuck you are a liar and a whore!

so take what you want and leave
you´ll never get another part of

I remember the day I
thought I would be free
I poured out my soul to you
exposed everything
next thing I know my hearts broke
my hand is much the same
I did my best to drink you away!

So take what you want and leave
you´ll never get another part of
you are poison on mans lips
lured in by the curves of your hips
come here boy stand by me
look my way have another drink

I should of got up...
I should of got up and left you

And I will never be your lover again
as far as I´m concerned
we are not even friends
this may not seem to subtle to you
the point I´m trying to make
is we are completely through

So take what you want and leave
you´ll never get another part of

You are poison on mans lips
lured in by the curves of your hips
come here boy stand by me
look my way have another drink

I feel eyelashes on my cheek, and they lacerate my flesh.
A pain so good.
So put your hand in mine, never let go, never wake up 'cause I'm done with promises.
I'm taking blood oaths. Feels like you kiss my imperfections, My imperfections away.
And I would stand, Stand by your side.
Until the sun turns the sky all the colors I see in your eyes,

And I never need to see the sun again.
There is enough light in your eyes to light up all the world
So take me, Take me away.
Kill me slowly, I'll never be the same

I swear to you, On everything I am.
And I dedicate to you all that I am
I promise you that I'll stand right by your side,
Forever and always, until the day I die.
The bite marks on my neck never felt so good
Im losing control, and its all that I can do not to blackout, and fall into lust with you.
Your kisses infect me, the dark gift is loving you.


And I feel immortal, and I want to make you feel the same.
So stand by me as well immolate.
We can burn in each other's arms.

And I feel immortal, and I want to make you feel the same.
So stand by me as well immolate.
We can burn in each other's arms.

Risk-taking, trust, and serendipity are key ingredients of joy. Without risk, nothing new ever happens. Without trust, fear creeps in. Without serendipity, there are no surprises.

Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you've found is more suited to your needs than what you thought you were looking for.

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing that's real.

So show a little inspiration, show a little spark, show the world a little act when you show it your heart, we've got two lives--one we're given, and the other one we make, and the world won't stop, and actions speak louder, listen to your heart.