heather's journal

oh boy

it all started because of kristen
she was at school, talking about him
yeahhh
apparently she has candace syndrome
and she's only 17
so alli saves the day:
she tells kristen to back off, because "that's heather's man"
and then i guess she told her that everyone has been trying to get me to date him for a while
[which is the truth]

i believe she did it, but i don't
i told my mom about this just in case she hears anything
because kristen has a big mouth
and my mom says just go with it
and she tells me that she's gonna warn him about it and tell him to just go with it
this makes me nervous, real nervous

anyway
i told jess about the whole thing and she said she'd def go with it
but the part that makes me smile [privately, of course]
is that my mom and i were having a conversation later about it
and she was saying how she doesn't see what the problem is
that you can date a friend and all this other stuff
and because it's me and i have that reputation to uphold
i keep saying that i'm sure we would be unwilling [lie]
and she says that she thinks that i would be the only unwilling one
and i say why's that?
and she says, "because i think he likes you"
and i think i said why but the rest of the conversation took a different turn

but i told jess all of this too and she said:
"i dont want to say i agree with her. cause i dont want ah pbbted. but i do agree with the part where he likes you. duuude...its soo effing obvious. im sorry. but i speak the truth."
if this is true, that's soooo great for my situation
i just don't see how everyone else can tell
so i asked her how it's soo effing obvious, because i can't see it
she hasn't gotten the message yet, because she's at work
and the bad part is that i think when she gets it, she'll be here
so we'll have to have that conversation face-to-face

and we all may go to the movies in a few weeks
me, her, travis, and him
my mom's gonna pay for it
it's like a double date...weird

so this is giving me hope
 a lot of it
and its making me happy
like beaming
fingerrrrrs crossssed.