heather's journal

i found stuff i wrote about him a year ago

and it amazes me
a year ago, i felt the exact same way i do now
even though so much more has changed
he has been the one constant in my life for the past year

a year ago, i was having almost the same thoughts
granted, we weren't as close then as we are now
so those thoughts may not have been as loaded as they are now
but still
i was wondering what if and maybe

what i want hasn't changed at all
it's probably gotten worse as we've gotten closer
even though we didn't even talk for six months

i just can't believe it
i think the part that blows my mind the most
is the fact that everything else has changed
who i'm friends with has changed, family situations have changed, school situations have changed
i've changed
but how i feel about him hasn't
actually, that probably isn't true
the way i feel about him has probably intensified
they've definitely intensified

and they're not slacking up
the closer we get, the more intense they get
it's like a storm
the closer it gets, the more the thunder intensifies
i don't even like rain much and i'm using it as an analogy


"like the rain, i have fallen for you, and i know just why
you like the rain, always callin' for you, i'm fallin' for you now
just like the rain."