still up

i cant sleep.. is it really going to be over?.. it has to be over.. hes never gonna learn. if he doesnt come back.. thats fine. i just hope the best for him.. i hope he learns and treats the next girl better. if he does come back. dear God pls let me him good now. let me be truly happy with him. otherwise.. id rather be feel incomplete and content alone than be complete and miserable with him. pls God let him see wat he is doing to me. pls God help me to let go of the hurt he caused me before. pls God let him learn. and let me learn also.. im so tired already. how do i get my mind off this and take care of jelly.