back again

so here i am. again. same song second verse.. no not second.. the like the 50th time.Dear God.why am i always hurt. when are things going to get better for me and james. why do you keep making me feel like this. why dont u even care wen im sad. hes never gna make me happy.im tired already im tired of waiting for him to love me back tired of being doubted tired of being ignored all the time. im not perfect. but atleast i try to change. atleast hes not tired of me making the same mistakes. i know u cant change anyone. but isnt it. if u love someone ud change ur mistakes not for them but to make a better relationship .. for both..? how am i gna love again?