how can u do this to me

am i really that bad of a person that i deserve this? ive had it! he thinks i told everybody that we broke up. wen i didnt even tell anybody! i knew it was ivan telling him stuff but really.. how will ivan know anything and if he did say jus to say it.. how can james believe ivan?! im not even cool with him. i dont have anyone to talk to...im alone... and im still doing wrong?! u know wat its not even me. hes the one who wants this... i aasked ivan ivan sed james was sayin that me and jelly were sleepn over at his house and jelly is right next to him... ivan sed all he sed was "yea rite" i dnt kno who to beleiv..... somethin in ivans story doesnt make sense but in a way i still believe him.. bc ivan sed james sed hes the one that dumped me. how can he go from me and jelly sleepn over to him dumpn me.. unless ivan is the one that sed somehting IVE HAD it!!! whether james wants this or not!!! this is it!!! james doesnt treat me right anyways. i deserve way better i dnt need to feel like this anymore. i dnt need to be hurt anymore. i dnt need to be confused anymore im done!!! plus hes such a liar too .. james.. i kno he ignores me just to see other girls im so done wit it!!! im soooo done!!!!!! pls lord help me get over this help me help me help me.....