is this really the right thing to do? i deserve better. he cant jus come on his schedul. why doesnt he make time for me. its over this time. hes not sad at all. and im so miserable its not fair. he doesnt even care. dnt worry. jus one more time for me to get hurt and no more. i have many sins. such as taming my tongue. quick to listen slow to speak and slow to become angry is how i should be. i should not swear by heaven god or anything else. no boasting about tomoro. we dont kno wat will happend tomoro we should say instead it the Lord allows i will live and do this or do that... thats what i should focus on.. not losing a james. a temptation given by evil not by god. desire leads to sins which leads to death. im done with him. dear god for a little while now ive treated him as my God. i kno thats the biggest sin of all. i worshippd him. sacrificed for him. done everything for him. help me lord to stay away and help me to get my heart right and loveyou. i need to stay away from evil. help me lord... hes rly not calling me tonight. good i guess. its rly over and it needs to be.