am i really that bad of a person that i deserve this? ive had it! he thinks i told everybody that we broke up. wen i didnt even tell anybody! i knew it was ivan telling him stuff but really.. how will ivan know anything and if he did say jus to say it.. how can james believe ivan?! im not even cool with him. i dont have anyone to talk to...im alone... and im still doing wrong?! u know wat its not even me. hes the one who wants this... i aasked ivan ivan sed james was sayin that me and jelly were sleepn over at his house and jelly is right next to him... ivan sed all he sed was "yea rite" i dnt kno who to beleiv..... somethin in ivans story doesnt make sense but in a way i still believe him.. bc ivan sed james sed hes the one that dumped me. how can he go from me and jelly sleepn over to him dumpn me.. unless ivan is the one that sed somehting IVE HAD it!!! whether james wants this or not!!! this is it!!! james doesnt treat me right anyways. i deserve way better i dnt need to feel like this anymore. i dnt need to be hurt anymore. i dnt need to be confused anymore im done!!! plus hes such a liar too .. james.. i kno he ignores me just to see other girls im so done wit it!!! im soooo done!!!!!! pls lord help me get over this help me help me help me.....

im scared. he will call back hes angry right now. but hes not sick of it yet. but hes cheating for sure...

all the things i did for him. and this is still wat i get.. i jus wanted him to love me.. if he couldnt do that.. cant he atleast be sorry for al the broked promises he made? cant he atleast be sorry for wat he did to me.? i just want him to make it up to me. i just want someone to make it up to me. i want someone to take all this pain away from me. . 'ther is nobody.ive only got myself to make myself okay.i dnt even have myself anymore. he took that away from me.. i gave myself completely to him... wat do i do now. all ive got is this pain.. nothing else. no mind. no sense of reality to make myself okay again. no friend. no family. no self. nothin to help make it go awaywat do i do now .. all ive got is this pain. and nothin else ..

all the things i did for him. and this is still wat i get.. i jus wanted him to love me.. if he couldnt do that.. cant he atleast be sorry for al the broked promises he made? cant he atleast be sorry for wat he did to me.? i just want him to make it up to me. i just want someone to make it up to me. i want someone to take all this pain away from me. . 'ther is nobody.ive only got myself to make myself okay.i dnt even have myself anymore. he took that away from me.. i gave myself completely to him... wat do i do now. all ive got is this pain.. nothing else. no mind. no sense of reality to make myself okay again. no friend. no family. no self. nothin to help make it go awaywat do i do now .. all ive got is this pain. and nothin else ..

what is it i really dnt deserve to be happy? hes wat i want. why cant i jus be with him and be happy? sounds simple right? ive known this for a long time now.. i lose either way... whether im with him or not im nvr gna be happy. hes nvr gna giv me happiness.. hes nva gna do anything for me.