im tired of being talkd down to.. why cant he treat me like a precious gem. like a princess.. make me feel good. but instead im treatd like dirt. acts like im nobody.. is he that insecure?! just because my phone died and he couldnt get a hold of me for a few hours he thinks im doing something bad? how can i when jelly is right here.. i cant have anyone over bc my dads wife... plus ive ben so good to him.. HES the one who cheated on me and i took it all. i never once had intention to hurt him back. thats how true love is.. but im tired now. im tired of taking it all. how can i love someone that calls me names.. u cant call someone names out of anger.. if u love someone u wouldnt do that to them.. thats the thing. he says he loves me.. i know now that its not true. im just a fool for believin it.. actions speak louder than words.. why am i so beleiving.. i love him.. so much that i forgot to love myself. and thats noones fault but mine. i let him go already tonight. i hope its for sure.. im soo tired of being hurt. tired of crying. tired of having an empty feeling inside. tired of having noone ther for me. if anything thats wat i learned. uve got urself and urself only.. family and friends.. only for a while. but the way i am.. u cant go to them anymore. i put up with this tooo long now...i learned that he can never take care of me.. financially, physically, and most importantly for me.. emotionaly.. am i emotionally weak that i need someone ther and keep doin this to myself js for a few hours with him... or am i strong that i put up with soo much for so long?

love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

i cant sleep.. is it really going to be over?.. it has to be over.. hes never gonna learn. if he doesnt come back.. thats fine. i just hope the best for him.. i hope he learns and treats the next girl better. if he does come back. dear God pls let me him good now. let me be truly happy with him. otherwise.. id rather be feel incomplete and content alone than be complete and miserable with him. pls God let him see wat he is doing to me. pls God help me to let go of the hurt he caused me before. pls God let him learn. and let me learn also.. im so tired already. how do i get my mind off this and take care of jelly.

how do u stop loving someone. how can u jus let go. just let go something u worked so hard for. something u sacrificed everything for.