urn:jj:justjournal.com:atom1:txcoconut Laura JustJournal 2026-05-07T16:14:33.374Z urn:jj:justjournal.com:atom1:txcoconut:15759 2010-05-21T22:31:00.000Z 2010-05-21T22:31:00.000Z I am sitting outside on the balcony, in a comfortable chair with my feet propped up. A few stars are peeking through the blanketed dark sky and the cool wind is kissing the left side of my face and arms. I am an unemployed single mother of four wonderful children. It is late May and I am not sure if I can make June's rent, but I make sure the kids have food on the table. I have every reason to hate the world for the lack of jobs. To curse my previous employer for wrongfully laying me off. Also, I haven't emotionally gotten over my ex-boyfriend. I can't allow myself to get stuck. I have decided to get the education I have never received and attend college. For my childrens' sake and for mine. Hopefully, my qualities of persistence, dedication and focus will be passed along to my children. As I sit here comforted by the dark skies and cool, gentle wind, all I can think of is how much I feel loved and blessed. I am calm because of Him. I can't do this alone and He has never left my side. Like I have said before, I can curse the world. And to add to the equation of unfortunate events, I can blame all my bad choices on being a product of child sexual abuse, but I can't. I have chosen to live for Christ, my children and myself. I have chosen to continue learning. I owe everything to the Man above. Thank you. Love,Laura