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I
am writing this journal to figure myself out. I'm suppose to
write what I feel about certain stuff that happens to me. I
honestly don't think that this is gonna be a success because I'll
probably end up writing stupid bullshit that was just completely
random and off topic. I did that with the journal I had before.
Maybe its good to write whatever comes to my mind. No matter how
random. Or would it be better to organize it? Ill figure it out.
Here's some info for right now:

My
name is Leasia Denise Anderson

If
I were to become a man I would name myself Leon Dennis
Anderson

I'm
14

I'm
going to be a freshman at Stem High school (Class of
2016!!)

I'm
forgetful

I
have a very active imagination

I'm
a day dreamer

I'm
unorganized

I
like to start writing stores but I never finish them

I
am untalented (Its okay I can accept it)

I
am lazy (I think that's a good trait.)

When
I leave the house I always have to look decent

I'm
funny

I'm
creative

I
am an in the closet Atheist (My family would freak if they knew
that)

I
am a loyal person

I
think before I act most of the time

I
like being weird (Funny or different weird. Not just plain out
weird that would be weird. :)

I
compare myself to people. (I'm trying to stop)

I'm
in the middle of nice and mean because I can be really nice
sometimes and sometimes super mean

I
don't like making new friends. (The beginning of the conversation
is awkward for me)

That's
all I can think of right now. I'm listing to Tyler the creator
right now. I like his music. Hes atheist too. (Not that I don't
like christians) Hes a good rapper and I enjoy listing to him.
Along with Hoodie Allen Eminem and Machine Gun Kelly. I play
there songs when I'm nervous or I need to take my mind off
things. There real to me. Lil Wayne and all the other famous
rappers rap about the hood but I could care less about the hood
and the bitch you fucked last night. I still like there songs
though, Drake is one of my fave rappers. I don't like people
listing to my ipod because they comment on my music. I listen to
a lot of things. Including white people music. I like Mayday
Parade and We The Kings and Paramore and whoever else is on my
Ipod. I'm still black! Just because I like different types of
music besides "Drop that ass on the floor make that ass shake I'm
getting money" doesnt make me white. But I'm expected to just
like black music because I'm black. That pisses me off sometimes.
I am an open mined person I like all types of anything and I'm
open to anything different. Id rather just keep my music to
myself so I wont be called white girl and I don't have to
constanly ansert the question "What is this?" But I'm starting
not care what people think as much a I use to. I'm getting more
comfortable just being me (whoever I am).