Sat 1/7/06

Good Morning to you.... Well today is Sat and me and Christina are going to go out tonight to Kickers and get something to eat in Clarksvegas like usual. JUst the two of us no Matt. Ummm been a ok few days noting great just normal stuff. Havent talked to Barry since the last post he has been online though but we havent talked. Thats ok no big deal. I am ok with what it is with us or what it will be with us. I Have not talked to Kevin since I gave him the whole fuck off message on Monday 1/2/06 I just cant keep giving and not receive from who ever I am friends with it isnt fair to me and I am not going to be used like that to help make someone else feel better about themselves. Same for Barry if he cant be there for me when I need someone then I cant be here for him when he needs me. No matter what. So time is helping me to realize that. I dont need to be used. OK today I am back on my diet. I HAVE TO STICK WITH IT I can tell I have gained and I feel terrible. I weighted myself and weighed 238 last I weighed was 232 but from where I was at 289 I can complain too much I guess.OK well till next time.. oh yeah me and Christina and Matt went to Aplebes last nite and had drinks. We had a hot waiter and lets just say he wanted me ...lol I got two kieeses a massage and a big ole hug he was hot his name was Tommy.. lived in Clarksville on Madison st off exit 11.... anyway ..lol till next time c-ya