Reflections on DC 09

It was a satisfying trip: Portaits Gallery, Architecture Museum, jazz jam fest, Nando's Peri Peri, Pirate Bar on my birthday, Melissa's birthday bouquest of balloons - awesome surprise, cockroach climbing up my leg on the metro!!!, sunny beautiful weather.

Again, great crew at the Lansburgh. Love Lilly and Lauren. Alicia and Matt were also super helpful and accommodating. Sean great too. Not quite as invested. Liked the final product.

Rebecca Taylor, Prod Mgr/PSM, was awesome to hve along. LOVED her. She hated Chris with a deep seeded passion, which was very validating. He is passive aggressive and super venomous when aggrivated.

It kind of bugs me, or maybe it concerns me, that no one ever came up and said, "wow, beautiful work!" I did hear a parent going on about the costumes. Ahh, insecure artist child. You know what? I was pretty dan happy with the final thing. Blogged my first article about the colors I liked, etc.

NEXT! Hmmmm.... I don't know HOW to help SCERA move to the next level. To have aq crew as accomodating and skilled. To create scenery with the same passion as the Hale Crew on Treasure Island... WOWWY WOW WOW!!! To see the organiztion to the kind of funding that would allow for this. How to eliminate dead weight staff for better. How to CHANGE their vision from small time community production values,

I am tired. I am not learning anything!!! I have a deep problem with that. NEED to feel like I am growing, not growing old. To that end, I want to get excited and comitted to Life Vantage again for one last push. That will pay out very well and be totally rewarding. I don't want to have a JOB. I want to free lance comfortably, without the angst of desparacy.