This is something new that I am going to start doing. I am hoping this will help me control some anger and feeling that i do not want to share with others. They may just be stupid things that I do not want to burdon anyone else with. I am a typical girl...lol

At this point and time, I am watching a lot of friends geting married, and having kids. This is something that can make a girl feel jealous and left out. Specially when she has been with her boyfriend a long time and wans those things. I know tha Cale is the man for me I know that he is the one. I can feel it deep down. But when I try to talk to him about those things I get the evil eye. But yet he is allowed too mention it when he wants. How is that fair? I try not to mention it and keep it off my mind but that is hard. Specially when he keeps mentioning it when he wants something or during sex. It is driving me nuts. How do i control all these feelings?But other than that I do have to say that I love him very much.

I do have to say that I am getting excited I have almost been at taco bell for a year. On Feburary second will makrk that year mark. There are times that work can be a pain in my ass but overall Iove the job. I do think that there are things that can be changed. But that is normal anywhere that you go. I do think that there are some people that need to learn to hide the fighting that goes on between them or just stop it all together. They are the manager and the assistant manager, they need to learn to work together and get along. I know for sure that Alycia wants to get Jodieout of there. That has been her goal since day one. I not going to pick either one of their sides. I think that both of them have good ideas. Both of them also know things that are right and wrong. But they both do not go by the book or talk to each other about things. Jodie is the manager of the store. It is her store, before Alycia goes and does anything or changes anything I think that she needs to talk to Jodie about them. But what do I know I just wor there..lol.

Well I suppose that I should go shower and get my day going. But today is my lazy day, its my day off and I dont feel the greatest.